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With reference to Rocky's comment, thank you so much Rocky. and Truly! i believe we will catch a movie marathon together someday! =) YAY!

okay, on to my day's "recollections".

My God.

i can't believe what i just did. Wherever did that courage come from!?

Where? Where? did it just poof out of nowhere? Did it just zoom out of my surroundings?

WHat?! WHERE!

Did i make a wrong move? did i? i'm frantic. i'm panicking. i have absolutely no idea what came over me.

It may not have been a big deal (or even a tiny tiny deal) to most (well. 99% of you) of you out there. BUT it means ALOT to me. Because.

Because. Because. Because.

Simply Because. Gen doesn't make the first move. Well. Whether or not That even counts as a "move". it still is a big breakthrough.

BUt. i think. i think i think i think.

it's not God's plan.. so i SHALL NOT. WILL NOT. go any further.

Jesus Give me Strength. Give me Wisdom. Let me hear from You. Whether this is right or not. i NEED TO KNOW. i don't wanna grope around in the dark. i want Your Light. i want Your life. if its not Your Will, its Wrong. wrong wrong wrong.

So Father, let me know. talk to me. Let me hear Your sweet still voice.

I Know you Love me, Jesus. And you and i both know i can never love you like you love me.

But Jesus, i love you. i really do. i love you. with whatever little bit of love i can give.

i wanna love you like my first love, but sometimes i don't remember you.

i wanna love you like my best friend, but sometimes i don't feel like talking to you.

i wanna love you like you're my father, but sometimes i just choose to disobey you.

but Jesus, i love you. with whatever i can give. i love you.