FOUR LONG DAYS

i've not schooled for four long days.


Dear lord Jesus. my brain is a complete blank. other than... um. I'm sorry. and i'm a sinner. and please forgive me.


So dear Lord. speak to me. talk to me. let me hear your voice. Your sweet still voice that my heart recognises. i miss your holy presence.

Help me to deal with the mixed feelings i'm experiencing now. Help me.

There are so many many things to do. projects. presentations. revision. tutorials. coming exams. moving of house. packing of stuff. but i've no motivation for anything at all. Lord i know you hear my calls. are you teaching me something? is there something you want me to learn? show me Lord. i need your guidance. Your word says that You are the Lamp unto my feet, Light unto my path. i need your light in my life Lord.

Pride

Everyone has to deal with pride. and i think God's dealing with mine now.


It's so hard to take cos every little thing, is almost like a big blow. i need to learn humility. i need to lay down my pride and just sit at the feet of God to worship Him.


i know when God deals with me. He's helping me to grow. and i love him for that.


Thank You Jesus. Teach me to love you from the inside out.

Come to the CABARET!!!!

Woohoo! i just booked tickets for my cousin and i to watch CABARET!

YAY.

Thank you Jesus that You've given us the financial capabilities to afford the tickets. Thank you Lord that you've also given me the financial abilities to afford a Laptop. but Lord, i need guidance. I need to know when you've arranged for me to buy. i need to, and want to know whether you've plans for me to buy a lap.


Thank you for your revelation and word which you are gonna speak to me. Lord i ask that you guide me in everything i do.

And Lord!! i'm excited about tomorrow! i'm gonna be working with Karthi!!

i believe this is your divine arrangement. i believe it Lord, and i trust that you have your plans in stored for both for us. and i know it'll be a pleasant surprise! woohoo!

Dear Lord Jesus, i thank you for everything you've done on the cross for me. i thank you that you came down, even when you didn't need to. i thank you that you are willing to do whatever God told you to do, in order that we can all be saved. I thank you that You've chosen me! i thank you that you've called me Your Friend. and i thank God that you're my father!

Thank you thank you. Lord reveal yourself to me everyday. that i may know more and more of you. Lord reveal your heart to me. Just as the song says - Burn it deep within my soul, new strength and zeal that makes me whole. Burn it deep within my soul, new strength and fire O Lord.

Thank you Jesus.


In the Holiest and most High name of Jesus - AMEN!

MY GOODNESS.

O dear lord Jesus!!!!

it seems like i've forgotten about You!! i've not been spending time with You. i only talk to You once in a very very long while. i'm so sorry. terribly sorry. to have to wait for me time and time again, sorry sorry sorry.


Dear Jesus Jesus.

i thank you for the projects that you've given me. and i know that all the stress You put all of us through is to make us stronger, for Your plans are to prosper us, not to harm us. Lord i know that not one bit of me is worthy of You. But you came down to for sinners like me, and not for the perfect ones. i thank you Lord from the bottom of my heart, to know that no matter what happens, you'll always be there for me.

Lord i need help with my projects. i need vocabulary and good grammar to edit my report. i need the patience and preseverance. i need i need i need.
So many needs. but Lord, teach me to cast aside my needs and wants and instead, turn my eyes upon You. Lord.

Help me to see beyond everything now. help me to see the joy of the Lord.

i thank you Jesus because i know you're gonna do a great work in me even as i decide to fast from meat and potatoes to worship You. Thank you Jesus.

Thank you Jesus that you're gonna remove my headaches and muscle aches. i thank you that i don't have to rely on the muscle relaxant and medication to ease my pain. i kinda like my sore throat and husky voice, so maybe you can let me keep my husky voice?


Sweet dreams Jesus! i'll see you there!

in Jesus most sweet and wonderful name - AMEN

Migraine! My Brain! O, Don't Complain! You won't stand to Gain!

Yes, truly, Migraine. My brain hurts.

Thank you Jesus for Korkor. i Thank you that You've placed him in my life with such a special role - My brother! Woo hoo! so i get to see him day in, day out. and when he gets a girlfriend next time, i'll reveal to her His deep dark secrets. HeH HeH heh.

No but really. Thank you God that Korkor is such a great brother, although sometimes he's just plain irritating. Nevertheless, he's the best brother there is. i thank you that You Love him so much, and You have so many many many more blessings for him all stored up in Heaven's distribution Centre! YAY!

Thank you God for Papa, i thank You for you've blessed him with soooo much. i thank You that you've blessed him with GREAT and wonderful cooking skills. Maybe when he goes up to heaven, You can make him your Executive Chef. I know You love his food, and i know you love it when he cooks with the Love of the Lord. But above all, Lord i thank you that you love him so much. So much more than anyone can ever Love him. i thank you that You are so graceful towards him. and i thank you that your unfailing love surrounds him all day long. Hallelujah.


Lord, i thank you for Aunty Leng. i thank you that She loves papa so much. although i know Her personality is Very different from Mummy, i know that you've placed her in our lives to teach us something. I pray Lord that you'll enrich Her life with your Everlasting Love. And also that She will be able to advise papa on certain matters. i pray that you will give her the patience when dealing with our family, because we all know that Papa, kor and myself - we can all be so stubborn at times. Yup. so i thank you that you've sent Aunty leng to care for us, and to love papa. Thank you Jesus!


And here, a song for You my Lord.

Worthy - 10th July 2006, 9.30 am

Jesus
You came from above,
Setting aside
The comforts of Heaven.

Jesus
You dwelled among us
Shamed and rejected,
You bore the burden for us.

Worthy (x2)
Worthy of my praises

You are Worthy
Worthy
Worthy of my praises

You are worthy of all my praises (x2)

Jesus
Your promises revive me,
Comforting me
In the midst of my troubles

Jesus
Let Your unfailing love
Surround me
Just as You promised

Worthy (x2)
Worthy of my praises

You are worthy
Worthy
Worthy of my praises

You are worthy of all my praises


*Guitar chords are D A, G

Fever Meder Bever Kever Dever

Today. i missed church. because. i was sick. still am anyway. abit headachy and my body aches.


But today. i talked to God in the morning.


okay. i can't type much cos i'm quite hungry.

Thank you Jesus for food. Thank you Jesus for you've given me strength to fast from meat and Potatoes for 40 days. thank you Jesus for my ear drums so i can hear.. stuff. Thank you Jesus that all my group projects will go well

ok papa's here to pick me up for dinner.

B.e.e.f.y

Just beefy.


O dear Jesus. Give Me strength to abstain from meat and my beloved POTATOES. give me strength and discipline! i know You're gonna do great works in Singapore, and i thank you for that.

Dear dear Jesus. How did You even manage to Not be tempted when You were in the desert for 40 days. Goodness. Help me, Help me. i Know its not like you'll condemn me if i fail. i Know this is extra effort to show how important the issues in my heart are. But i really wanna worship You and i wanna Show the devil that My spirit can triumph over my flesh. So i will do it!! and i will succeed with the glory of God! Hallelujah!


thank You Jesus, i thank You that You've made the world so small. such that.. um. everyone knows everyone. i thank You that Karthi has gotten the Job at Tkidz. i thank you that You are my provider. and i thank you that you..... There's so much i wanna say. yet i can't express it in words.


I Love you Jesus. and i pray each day you'll deposit Your seed of love in my heart, so that i can Love others just like i love myself. teach me to love those who are hard to love. Lord i thank you that Your mercies are new every morning, and i thank you that You will never abandon or forsake me. i love you Jesus, and i will worship you all the days of my life.


Lord, please talk to me, and tell me what you think of Beefy. i need advice about this issue. and Lord, i believe if it is Your will, All things will happen in Your time. thank you Jesus, i know i'll be hearing from you soon!


Hallelujah.

-

You laid aside Your majesty,
Gave up everything for me,
Suffered at the hands of those You had created.

You took all my guilt and shame,
when You died and rose again,
Now today You reign in heaven and earth exalted.

I really wanna worship You my Lord,
You have won my heart and i am Yours.
Forever and ever,
I will love You.

You are the only one who died for me,
Gave Your life to set me free.
So i lift my voice to You in adoration.



i think. Falling in Love with Jesus is the easiest and the only thing you can do when you're in his presence.

fall in love with Jesus.

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. i could go on forever.

i really could go on forever. Today in uncle PC's car, You (God) gave me a glimpse of Your wonderful love. Your precious love. You everlasting Love. i almost wept in the car.

Dear papa God.

i pray that You will let whatever Reinhard Bonnke preached today sink deep into my soul and spirit that i may never forget. Lord, whatever talents (Matthew 25 - Parable of the 3 servants) that i have unknowingly or knowingly buried underground, i pray that you'll Show me where are, what they are, and help me to uncover them, give me strength so that i can be used the way you have planned.

Lord Jesus, i know deep in me, you have so much more to do through me. But Lord, some days, i lose direction, i go off the path you've paved for me. Lord guide me. for your word says, You are the Lamp unto my path, and light unto my feet. Guide me. Show me Your way, Your Will. I Want YOUR will. Not mine.

i thank you Jesus. i thank You Jesus that You're gonna heal whatever hurt that XX is going thru now. i pray you'll bless her with an obedient heart, that She will obey whatever her mother says, not because She's her mother but Because YOU say so. Lord i pray that you will heal whatever hurt this has caused in their relationship, and i know that she's going thru a stage where hormones go nuts, but i know Lord that You are above all, and only You can heal this hurt, and control the crazy hormones.

Thank You Jesus. i wanna pray for Khartik (or Kharthik? karthik? kartik?) i thank you that He's able to be in the Students' Union and up for elections. Lord i pray with all my heart that you do a deep work in him, Even if he fails this time, i know you have something to teach him.

Lord i thank you for the leadership skills you have given him and i know that You have so much more in stored for Him, i thank you that You have Made all of the Head, and not the tail. Lord i pray for wisdom, Because you say in your word, that whoever needs wisdom should ask, and he shall receive it.

Lord i pray you'll teach him how and where to publicise, or um.. "Market" himself. i ask that you'll give him the words to speak to other people to convince Them to vote for him. i ask for favour for the students and teachers. i thank you for the success that you've blessed him with, and i thank you that you're gonna give him good friends who will be there to support him in times of need. i Pray that You will cause his spirit to be so sensitive to Your voice that He will know for sure, it is YOu and not the other voices in his head. i also pray for an open heart and mind. But above all, i pray that you'll reveal yourself to him, and in Your own creative ways, do your work in him.


i thank you that my tuition class in gonna be great tomorrow, i bind the spirit of negativity in me, which causes me to speak words of condemnation (eg. Dumb, sure fail, stupid. etc) Lord remove those words from my heart, and in replacement, i ask that You'll teach me to use words of encouragement. Lord give me the right skills to teach them, so that they can benefit from my classes, as well as have fun! Because Lord i know You're the Fun-est God there ever is!! so teach me how to let them have Fun in a productive way. i ask for wisdom, so that i am able to deliver all that they have to learn, and give me the words and phrases to say to them when i'm explaining.


Thank you jesus for your sweet sweet presence, i Love you Jesus. I love you i love you.


In the Glorious and beautiful name of JEsus - AMEN!