MY FIRST

so long since i blogged.




ACK.


I'm gonna do my FIRST TUTORIAL FOR THIS SEMESTER -


Principles of Marketing.


(and its only 3 questions.)

then i guess i'll do my Second tutorial

Logistics & Operations Modelling. Which i think is THE best subject for this sem. Cause its easy to score!

Weeee! then after that. i'll read Comics. (Fruits Basket)

CHLOE:

Thank you, My dear! it's VERY nice. HEHE. i'm at book 7 okay, not that slow. will haunt you for the rest come Friday. Miss you all Very much =) Say Hi to your mum for me. and Kiss Jedd's cheek for me. and Hug Zac for me. and Give Mama a backrub for me. and after all these, Pat yourself on the back for me! HEHEH.


Okay!. gonna get started on my tutorial, tutorials.

Dearest Jesus, i thank you for Your holy presence, Holy spirit i welcome You, come and make yourself at home as i do my tutorials. Wanna Pray for everyone studying for A Levels, and all of us tutorial-doers. I ask for Wisdom so we can all study efficiently, i also ask that you give us good memory, to remember whatever that was taught, as well as to remember everything that we learn right now.

above all, i ask Lord, that my every action will bring glory to Your name. i humbly ask for your Mercy and grace. and i thank you because You will never change. Thank you for being my solid rock.

In Jesus' Most beautiful name, Amen.

a day out in the open. or closed.

you know.

i miss God. i miss feeling close to Him. i miss talking to Him.

and somehow. i don't have that fire in me to want to draw close to Him Although, i want VERy much to draw closer to him. WHY


Blephordioo.



(thats just gibberish)

i'm proud to be....

THE OWNER OF..............

JAMES PATTERSON'S LATEST



- C R O S S -

Timetable's out!

Here goes:

Monday - 9am to 4pm
Tuesday - 9am to 11 am (HAHA)
Wednesday - 11am to 1pm (HAHAHA)
Thursday - 9am to 7pm (My goodness.)
Friday - 9am to 12pm (YAY)

SIGH. and a BIGGER SIGH.

should i change my Elective to Calculus? instead of Marketing.

Because if all my other subjects are Qualitative. its really gonna kill.

Moreover, i got A for Management Science which is a Quantitative subject.

And i'm extremely tempted to Switch to Calculus. (Calculus is ALMOST like Amath.)

And i didn't do well at all for my Amaths.

And if i take Calculus, i'll have one less project to do. cos most probly there'll be a project for Mkting.

O well.

i'm gonna see our Course manager with Gek on Monday.. Clear all my doubts first, then see how.


Jesus, Guide me. For your word says, You are the Lamp unto my feet, Light unto my path.

So Lead me, show me Your Way.

its been four years.

Tomorrow's Mummy's 4th death anniversary. and i still thank God for bringing her to Heaven where she's Young and healthy and Happier than ever! =)

i went down to her... tomb?
.ney. urm.. ashes? but they're in a jar, behind a marble slab.

Well anyway. its supposed to be tomorrow, but papa's got work tmr. so we went today.

It was.. hmm.. i don't know.

i just miss mummy so much. everyone needs a mummy, although at times you may think you don't want one. but at some point, you know you Need one. and i miss my mummy.

and then at the place where her ashes were, i was walking around and i saw another "Person".

the marble slabs are about the size of a big bible. so usually there'll be the person's Picture, a bible verse, a cross (all Christians. its at All Saints Home.), and the Birthdate, and date of departure, and a little bit of family tree info.

so this other "Marble slab" i saw, was really simple. No Picture or anything. just a cross, a date - 30th Dec 1995, and a name - Joshua Tay something something, and " we will always love you".

there were many other stuff hanging around. (because this isn't government's territory, hence we have much more freedom and space. so pple like grow flowers there, and hang cards, and make little shelves and put mimature stuff. Really pleasant. Reminds me of Heaven.) lets see some of the pictures of (plastic) Flowers:

There was a Card, which i didn't read until later. then there were some.. um.. display suff. so i was pretty intrigued because there was so little information on the marble slab. so i read the card which was dated 2005. (sorry.)

it was written by all the members of the family, mummy, daddy, and daniel.

and they all said "Happy 10th Birthday!" and it struck me that Joshua probably died not long after he was born or maybe, he was a stillbirth.

and. it just left me so sad. and i know how great the impact is when one loses a family member.

its just sad.

the Daddy wrote (in the card) - about how losing Joshua had brought so much more into his life. That Heaven had never been closer in his past 31 years than when Joshua left the family.
and the mummy wrote - that she missed him so much. she still cries when she thinks about him. but she's happy that he's in Heaven with Jesus. and she can't wait to see him again.
Daniel wrote - that sometimes he wished Joshua was with them. and. how he longed for a brother. and he was speechless. (sad).

well. i know that God has great plans for this family. because God had, and still has Great plans for my family after mummy went home. so i thank God, that He is in control of everything. Even when the whole world seems dark and it feels as if one's walking on a tightrope, God is in Control. He might let you fall, but he'll catch you.


Because, God will never let me (and you) go. i know that for sure.

and thats all i'm living for.

Can You Believe?

i'm so secure
You're Here with me

You Stay the same
Your Love remains
Here in My heart

S o close, i believe
You're holding me now
In Your hands, i belong
You'll never let me go

HAHA

i was so happy i -

smiled to myself.

chuckled to myself.

smiled to myself more.

laughed to myself.

laughed to myself in the bath.

Jumped up and down while in the bath.

laughed and jumped up and down in the bath.



Yes. i was that happy. =)