i went down to her... tomb?
.ney. urm.. ashes? but they're in a jar, behind a marble slab.
Well anyway. its supposed to be tomorrow, but papa's got work tmr. so we went today.
It was.. hmm.. i don't know.
i just miss mummy so much. everyone needs a mummy, although at times you may think you don't want one. but at some point, you know you Need one. and i miss my mummy.
and then at the place where her ashes were, i was walking around and i saw another "Person".
the marble slabs are about the size of a big bible. so usually there'll be the person's Picture, a bible verse, a cross (all Christians. its at All Saints Home.), and the Birthdate, and date of departure, and a little bit of family tree info.
so this other "Marble slab" i saw, was really simple. No Picture or anything. just a cross, a date - 30th Dec 1995, and a name - Joshua Tay something something, and " we will always love you".
there were many other stuff hanging around. (because this isn't government's territory, hence we have much more freedom and space. so pple like grow flowers there, and hang cards, and make little shelves and put mimature stuff. Really pleasant. Reminds me of Heaven.) lets see some of the pictures of (plastic) Flowers:
There was a Card, which i didn't read until later. then there were some.. um.. display suff. so i was pretty intrigued because there was so little information on the marble slab. so i read the card which was dated 2005. (sorry.)
it was written by all the members of the family, mummy, daddy, and daniel.
and they all said "Happy 10th Birthday!" and it struck me that Joshua probably died not long after he was born or maybe, he was a stillbirth.
and. it just left me so sad. and i know how great the impact is when one loses a family member.
its just sad.
the Daddy wrote (in the card) - about how losing Joshua had brought so much more into his life. That Heaven had never been closer in his past 31 years than when Joshua left the family.
and the mummy wrote - that she missed him so much. she still cries when she thinks about him. but she's happy that he's in Heaven with Jesus. and she can't wait to see him again.
Daniel wrote - that sometimes he wished Joshua was with them. and. how he longed for a brother. and he was speechless. (sad).
well. i know that God has great plans for this family. because God had, and still has Great plans for my family after mummy went home. so i thank God, that He is in control of everything. Even when the whole world seems dark and it feels as if one's walking on a tightrope, God is in Control. He might let you fall, but he'll catch you.
Because, God will never let me (and you) go. i know that for sure.
and thats all i'm living for.
