Forgive and forget. thats what God would do.

So.

i'm not saying these because i think i'm righteous or people have wronged me whatsoever. i just feel its necessary to do some... Housekeeping. Because i know God's about to do a great work in my life. So. lets just clear out some old stuff to let the new in.

To you, who said you would NEVER lie to me, but cheated for the longest time. i forgive you.

To you, who vented your frustration and loneliness on me when mummy passed away. i forgive you, and still love you.

To you, who -in your frustration - said i would never grow up and always be childish. i forgive you. (and reject that comment in the name of Jesus. hehe. nothing personal.)

To you, who brought me back and forth for 3 years. i forgive you, and am glad we're still friends.

To you, who said i was dumb. i forgive you.

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To you, whom i've let down after 2 months because of my selfishness. i'm sorry.

To you, whom i've disappointed when mummy passed away. i'm sorry.

To you, whom i've vented my anger on. i'm truly truly sorry.

To you, whom i've irritated. (hehehe). i'm still sorry.

To you, whom i've abandoned because i was irresponsible. i'm sorry. and i still love you so much.

To you, whom i've lied to because i was selfish and jealous. i'm sorry.

(the above-mentioned are of reference to specific people)

There's still alot more, i know. But to anyone whom i've wronged or anything, i ask for forgiveness.

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Lord, thank you for revealing to me my own true ugly nature.

But your word says that No matter how ugly i am, You will never reject me. You will NEVER abandon me. and even when the whole world has turn its back on me. You pick me up. You hold my hand. You wipe my tears away.

and i know there's so much more you can reveal, but choose not to. Cause i know if you reveal all in one go, i'll probably just... decompose. i think.

Lord. i thank you, for you are graceful. i thank you that you are gonna help me to change my ugly nature, to be more and more like Christ. and i am truly grateful that you WANT to help me change. Thank you Jesus.

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And

To All you, who smiled and said Hello. Thank you. Thank you. =)

(especially you.)