God has heard

Hahaha. Today a million people have asked me if i'm okay. Thank you for your concern people :) i appreciate it.

But i really don't know what to say to that question, or how to answer it. Because i know the truth is, i'm not okay. i hate to admit it, but i know i'm not okay. But i'd have to explain a whole lot of stuff if i were to answer, "No, i'm not really okay. teehee." and.. its only normal to say "i'm fine" to the "Are you okay?" Question. ( And i really feel grateful that that person asks out of concern. but. sometimes, the truth is.. difficult to tell.)

So i decided, i'm just gonna smile and say, i'm fine, don't worry :)

To all you whom i've ignored or given one-worded answers to today, i'm sorry, sincerely.
i'm really tired. and have been tired. Physically, Mentally and emotionally. Its more than just the camps and baking i guess. I believe the Lord's doing something in my Life now, and its just a phase in my spiritual life that i have to go through. i'm thankful God's doing His work in my life, Cause otherwise, i'd be kinda useless.

I thank God that He's teaching me, and guiding me. I thank God for making me feel certain feelings to remind me i should rely on Him, and trust Him.

Just tonight, i was walking home from the MRT station, and i suddenly felt nostalgic, i felt blue. i Hate feeling blue. Its just so... Blooo. Bleh. Blay. Bloh. Blurk. and my mind started to wander, and my heart started to miss certain people i shouldn't be missing. and Right there and then, i told God i didn't want those emotions. i didn't want to feel all moody and sad and Blooo all day. And the Bible says if you seek God, You'll find Him. So i did, i told God i want Him, more than anything else. And RIGHT at that moment, His Love came down on me, and i felt nothing but His love, comfort and embrace.

Shepherd of my soul, I give You full control,
Wherever You may lead, I will follow.
I have made a choice, To listen for Your voice,
Wherever You may lead, i will Go.

Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream,
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side.
May i face a mighty mountain, or a valley dark and deep,
The shepherd of my soul, will be my guide.

I thank God for Marcus. Marcus, Thank you for listening to me, and thank you for asking me to share, and always assuring me that i can talk to you. Talking to you made me feel better :) And it still irritates me that you're leaving in a month's time. >:( We better meet up before you leave ah.

I thank God for Ros. :) Ros, i'm thankful that sometimes, we don't have to say anything when we're with each other, but yet, still feel comforted. I'm thankful that you're so easy to talk to because we understand each other. i'm thankful i can tell you anything and everything and not fear bout you judging me. i'm thankful we can laugh about armpit hair. :)

And Xuan!! :) i'm really sad we can't go OSIP together. i was SO looking forward. if i do get to go, i'd be missing you 3,762,905.79 times everyday. and thank you for reading my brog. and don't worry, :) i am sad, but i'll be fine, because i've got Jesus with me :)

And to all who reads Gennie's Brog, :) tahaha. Thanks for reading!