As we're all rushing to complete and touch up our QM project,

My head is singing:

Cuz I-I-I-I LUr-Ur-Ur-URve the way you say good morning,
And Yo-O-o-U Take me the way I am.......

O well. I'm tired.

Special thanks to :

Nat (Thank you. You're such a Big help. i'd still be lost in that pile of work if you didn't take over compilation)

Xuan (Thank you dear. i hope your.. family episode will clear up soon :) Love.)

Gek (Thank you for worrying. and no, you're not gonna see my puffy eyes tmr cos Nat took over! YAY!)

Zul (Thank you! :) for chatting. and showing me your references. hahahah.)

WaiYiu (Thank you! :) You and all that lame stuff. I AM COOKIES AND WIN. :D )

OKAY! Time Check : 12.56am.

We should all catch some snooze soon. I needa showerh! :D

Ta-Ah!

Today's friday :)

Sigh. As i was walking home from the bus stop earlier (after school), was listening to some music and everything, there was a slight drizzle, and the ground had some puddles. And i was walking up a slope in heels, feet were aching a little (Urgh). It was about 8 plus.

and then "Bad day" by Daniel Powter came on. :D and i smiled to myself as i thought about my day.

Tons of ups and downs. The whole hustle bustle about FYP project group has thrown everyone off course. I could feel the pressure and everything, Everyone's just - Stressed. i guess. And as i looked and listened to Jessie, Hanqian (I Heart you), Kammie and Peiwen worry about their own groupings and all, seeing them tear - makes me wanna reassure them, i wanna tell them not to worry. Because i wasn't in a better position than them earlier, but God truly showed me that i could trust Him. and He has provided my group with a solution, Although it didn't go as planned, but i believe His will is gonna shine thru, and i truly believe Our FYP is gonna be great. :)

And then. Somehow, With everyone crying, laughing, joking, taking pictures, As we were walking towards the Audi for the BSC AGM, and we were making jokes like how we all look like we're from "The Apprentice" and all. It made me feel like we were a family. Seeing how everyone listened to Jessie and Hanqian when they were stressed up about their FYP really showed how much we (LIG Main Comm) care for one another, whether we realise it or not. Its true.

And, almost at once, i felt at peace, despite all the rejection and brain-juice-squeezing before BioChem Lecture. I felt at peace knowing that this bunch of us - Eve, Din, Felicia, Karen, Kachee, Smantee (LOVE YOU ALL. EVENTS ROCK.), Jessie, Hanqian, Nat, Gek, Yuwen and Myself - we are a family - I see it happening. i really do. :)

Well. I really hope i'd be able to go overseas for my internship with Nat! :D I CAN'T WAIT!. and HANQIAN (if you ever read this): GO. YOU MUST GO FOR THE INTERNSHIP. I'LL GIVE YOU SUPPORT (you know what kind of support la :) ) IF YOU NEED IT. LOVE! :)

Once again, LIG MAIN COMM ROCKS.

O. Some things i wanna say to my fellow main-commers. :)

Eve - Girl. you know i'll listen if you need to talk :) Don't keep things to yourself okay! I may not be able to help. But i'll be there if you need someone.

Din - My DEAREST DEAN DEAR. :) YOU. I thank you. for trusting me, for listening to me, and for talking to me, for EVERYTHING. THANK YOU.

KACHEE - You! With the damaged hair. :D Somehow i feel like you're slowly opening up to us after the LOM Camp. and i think its great! We should play the piano together some time man!

Smantee -SMANTEE <3. You are so crazy. and together, we're kinda mean aye. Like during the BSC AGM, making fun of the Emcee's accent and all. :D EVENTS ROCK.

Jessie - Jessie jessie! :) Would looove to get to know you better if i can. I think you're great! And. Don't worry about the FYP thing okay, i'll keep you in my prayers. :) It'll be fine.

HANQIAN - I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. i really think we should all go Bangkok again some day. :D AND Please Go for OSIP. I'll help you in whatever way i can, It's a GREAT opportunity so don't let it go okay! :) I LOVE YOU.

Yuwen - Yuwen! :) I, too, definitely want to get to know you more. Really. And thanks for talking to me online - regarding the smoking stuff. I won't forget it :)

GEK! - WEEGEK! I want the BSC AGM photos!!!!! :D kay. apart from that, YOUR ENGLAND IS OKAY LA. :) You should have more confidence in yourself :) Thank you for doing projects with me. Your presence has taught me alot of stuff, even though i'm sure you don't realise it.

NATO - ICAN'TWAITTOGOOSIPWITHYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really really can't wait. I'M SO EGGCITED. Thank you thank you for staying up so late, squeezing brain juice for QM. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. :D

Felicia - PLease don't feel bad. (FYP thing) DON'T. :) I'm really okay. I think your group will be great :D WO-AI-NEE.

KAREN - :D Thank you. i don't know what exactly i wanna thank you for, but i know I WANNA THANK YOU. Your presence has taught me lotsa stuff. THANK YOU. I LOVE YOUR GHOST STORIES, they're so scary, it makes me not wanna listen :D


OKAY! there's alot more to say. but i think i'd wait till graduation or something. I truly Thank God for each one of the main-commers. :D THank you Jesus.

If i could, i would adopt a dog and cat from SPCA.

If i could, i would tell everyone i know how much they mean to me.

If i could, i would work with animals for a living.

If i could, i would have a show on Animal Planet.

If i could, i would not sin.

If i could, i would choose to love.

If i could, i would turn back time, and slap myself in the head.

Lord. would you forgive me. I know i'm a sinner, but you died on the cross for our sins. And so, by your grace and mercy, forgive me. Thank you Jesus. I love you.

I'm a bad bad bad bad person.

ARH-MUN-ARH-MUN-ARH-MUN-ARH.

I feel so ess-ai-ay-en.

maybe its because i just left Ee's house after staying there for more than a week. I feel like i miss screaming-Jedd already. I miss Watching anime with Chloe. I miss Talk ing to Zackee. I miss "AY! SHHH!!-ing" at Jedd. I miss Ee. : (

Maybe its because i start school tmr. ARGH. the thought of all the projects (which i'm currently worrying about.) and getting back all the tests results. BAH. I AM worried. i am worried i won't do well. i'm worried.

And i feel cranky. :< This is bad. i need to pray.

O Father father. (Emo.) Why am i feeling so sian. (emo. emo.) I hate being Emo.
So please take this feeling away. And bless me with Your joy!
O Lord, You, and only You know my worries, and my burdens.
Lord i pray You will teach me to trust in You.
That thru' all these experiences, i will grow stronger, and i will learn to rely on Your strength.
I want to grow. i really want to grow.
I want to experience the Joy of knowing everything is in Your control.
I want to Go all out for You, while at the same time, Rest in Your everlasting love.

Jesus, i Love you. But teach me to grow in that Love.
Teach me Your greatest commandment - To Love others as thyself.
I really want to learn, to love.
Lord, each time my impatience takes over, Teach me. Reveal to me. Mold me.

I want to love.

Thank you Jesus. :) I feel better already.

Okay. There doesn't seem to be Transport Tutorial. Neither is there LOMe Tutorial.

So, Next on my To-Do-Tonight-Before-Indulging-in-Bleach-And-Naruto-List:

1. Draw up planner and plan dates.
2. Read up and refresh memory for all projects.
3. Pray for 100K.
4. Indulge! :)

Been rather bored lately, holiday's too short to work. Can't wait to get my pay from the bintan trip. I thank God for the Bintan experience :D Taught me alot of things. I thank God that He's teaching me, guiding me, digging deeper. Issues i've never known about myself are slowly surfacing. I'm happy God's dealing with me! It's definitely a difficult process. But its all part of God's plan. :)


I'm gonna do something to my hair later. Maybe i should colour it purple. Although i was thinking maybe Orange. Maybe HAHHAHA. okay. i should stick to more conservative colours lest i shock my fellow homosapiens.


OKAY. i'd better get back to NARUTO spree. i'm done waiting for Shippuden. SO LONG. >:( so i've started what i didn't finish last time.
Why is my font size so big.

IAMBACKFROMBINTAN :D

Too tired to detail-post.

Was great. i learnt alot. Spiritual lessons.
Discovered new emotions. (Ha-Ha-Ha)

Got Sick, still sick. (Fever plus asthma. Pure bad timing.)
Hence i didn't do much.


Will blog more soon. To all who tagged when i was overseas. THANK YOU FOR READING :)

Hanqian: I HEART YOU. blame it on my carelessness okay! :(

LOM Camp :)

Was great. i thought it couldn't have been better. KaChee did great, i think. I feel Happy, seeing all the participants participate actively, especially the seniors. Didn't think they'd be enthusiastic really, but i was wrong! With Saliheen and Kenneth's Special Performance, and Jeric's and Eden's Ultraman Act, and Qiwei and Fadzly's Tree Thing. Hahahha. :D Thank you all.

Okay. Since Sam, Din and i planned Cluedo, i shall explain it to those who didn't manage to solve it. :)

Din, a filthy rich man, has Jessie as his wife, and together, they had Gek. But Din has an affair with Felicia. Jessie wants Din's money, and thought that if he died, she (as his wife) would inherit his assets. So she kills Din by hiring a mechanic to tamper with his brakes, and hence Din dies in a "Car accident".

BUT. She soon discovers that Din had willed all his assets to their only son, Gek. Felicia got angry as she thought the love she shared with Din was strong enough for her to get a share of his assets, she thus felt that her wrath can only be satisfied by killing Gek, and hence, plots to kill him. (Voodoo drawing.)

Now. Gek is married to Evelyn, and has two beautiful daughters - Natasha and Karen. But! as the saying "Like father, Like Son" goes, Gek too has a mistress - Yuwen, and together, they have HanQian. HanQian is engaged to KaCheong (hahahah!). Somehow, KaChee knows that Gek has willed a third of his assets (inherited by Din's death) to his Legitimate daughters (Karen and Nat) and the remaining two-thirds of his assets to HanQian.

With this knowledge, Kachee plots to kill Gek, and eventually does it in an accident (Gek was stabbed.). And so, HanQian is now filthy rich. :D -end-

DISCLAIMER: Any resemblance to actual characters or happenings is purely coincidental.

:D i think the story feels incomplete. maybe in the future when i'm free, i'll extend the.. LIG Main Comm Tangle.

Thank you Din! for the doughnut-factory Doughnuts! and Thank you Mrs Wee for the 40 Pratas!. Thank you Mr Foo for your active participation in Cluedo! Thank you Eve for sharing :) i love you. Thank you *HanQian(sorry!! :D <3), Jessie, Yuwen, Nat, Karen, Felicia, Smantee! I love you all. Thank you KaCheong! :D You were great. and i'm sorry the photo-thing didn't work out as planned. And, of course, Gek. Please take care :) We missed you at camp.

Okay. I am fever-ing. This is bad. i'm overseas-ing tmr. God, Heal me please.

To: Melvin (Chia) (Saitor.)

(If you ever do read this.) I truly, from the bottom of my rather small (but growing bigger) heart, thank God for you, For your presence in my life. I think its the little things that you say, and the stuff i learn from you, changes my thinking, and helps my spirit grow. I think God works wonders, and i still find it strange how sometimes i find it so easy to talk to you about Christian-hood and stuff. Of course i do hope that you'd share stuff with me too, be it about camps or just whatever. But i sincerely believe it is God's plan that we become friends. So i thank God for you. :D

This page of Quality Tutorial is for:

1. Gennie ong - to remind her to start studying. and CONCENTRATE.
2. Gennie's Friends - to remind them to start studying. and CONCENTRATE.
3. Gennie's Friends who are laughing at her cause they need not study. - Go away. >: (

As i prepare for my Materials Management paper at 3 whilst listening to The Way I Am on my brog, i realise something.

I miss Jesus. <3

No, i'm not hallucinating whatsoever. Jesus is real, and i miss Him so. My friend, my father, my life, my hope, my love, my lover.

My new love for Indie music. <3

Actually, its not really New. I've always liked Indie Music. I just didn't know that that kinda music belongs to the "Indie" genre.

AND I CAN'T TURN OFF THE AUTO-PLAY. >: (

Anyway. You're listening to "The Way I Am" by Ingrid Michaelson.

I Love this song. It's an ear worm.

Lyrics:

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine if you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

-the way i am, Ingrid Michaelson.

Bla.

Just came back from Dinner with Sherwyn. Car ride was good :D Thanks to Olivia who was singing to us through out the journey from the CD player.


My mind's Stuffed with Thoughts. and my mind's empty at the same time. i'm feeling quite horrid.

O well. Transport paper's tmr. Please please pray for me. i'm not really confident this time. but i want to do well. Well - Who doesn't.

So. :D I'm gonna start studying after i bathe, again. So many baths, i've taken.

Was reading thru someone's blog. Let's hear about her:

I was in the same class as her for about a year. I found her intimidating. and Boisterous. (okay. thats not really a nice word. but i can't find any other. my Engrish.) and. I don't know. O well.

Was reading her blog. and all her issues with this guy she can't seem to let go off made me wonder about what i used to be/feel when i broke up with my "relationshipee" when i was in secondary school. All her emoness reminded me of my own emoness. (Warning: This may very well be an emo post. Brace Yourselves.)

I've always always always thought of her as a really strong person. But after reading her blog and all. She doesn't seem that strong. hmm. makes me realise that everyone has a door that leads to a weaker being within themselves.

But God says, When you're weak, you are strong.

Because when we're weak, we look to God. and God IS STRENGTH. GOD IS LIFE. GOD IS HOPE. and above all,


God is Love.


Anyway. Recently there's another person, who seems to be getting on my nerves. I have no idea why. but its just.. the things he says. REALLY. ARGH. i know i'm evil, but sometimes (in all my evilnessity,) i just ignore him, and give him a blunt "Okay". I know i know. *points to myself, and say "EVIIILLLL"*

I really need God's love. Because God didn't call us to love those who are easy to love, but, Love the unlovely ones. I'm not saying he's unlovely whatsoever. Everyone is unlovely in their own ways. I'm unlovely in my own way too. So. we all need God's love to "love thy neighbour as thyself". Serious.

I miss Lifeskills Enrichment. I miss Ros, Melvin, Melnana, Stephen.

I miss Huimin. <3

And I miss Auntie Laigek, Cheryl, Lynne, Karthi, and the whole Papadum gang at church!!!!!!! The Papadum gang is LOVE.

And to Uncle Jit. Enough with the Match-making and *AHEM*-teasing already. GOODNESS. EV-E-RY SUNDAY. You're such a nutty person. Totally can't imagine you lecturing SRJC studs.

O well. i miss so many people.

And to think if i Get to go for OSIP (WOO HOO!! HALLELUJAH!!) I'm gonna be missing even more people. And Ah. All my committments. gotta make so many arrangements.

And my spiritual family. AH. all the aunties and sisters. WE ROCK FCBC.

I'm glad i can love. i'm glad i love. Quote, I love because You first loved me. (Quote from bible la.)

Love - Who doesn't believe in love?

ME. i decided to do something random.

So here are some stuff, which i think are quite unknown. unless you're family. or. me, being random, mentioned them.

the Buggy side:

1. I have eaten (crunched) Ten live beetles, Fear-factor style. HAH!. Whatever la. Papa who used to go to temples said the monk said those beetle would cure my asthma. SO. he made me close my eyes, and he popped them into my mouth. they were............. spicy.

2. I Once stepped on a cockroach with my bare foot. ACCIDENT, of course. TOTALLY GROSS. still makes me shiver. YUCK. and it popped. LITERALLY, POPPED. SO SO SO SO SO SO SO GROSS. YUCK YUCK YUCK. I screamed and jumped all over the place and washed my foot with body soap, hand wash and shampoo.

3. I HATE WORMS. HATE. ABHOR. DETEST. LOATHE.

The Language side:

1. I HATE, (kay. not hate. but TOTALLY DISLIKE WITH A HUGE AMOUNT OF DISLIKATION.) people (esp. Girls) Who talk like "Ai know eeu Lurb me wor." And they always use a whole lot of symbols. like, example, they're "about me":

(*^@*^|| i Am born a Pink Princess||^*@^*)

This example is pure minimal. My goodness. SPEAK/TYPE PROPERLY.
And i think people who type loads of symbols, are just too free.

2. I adore the French Language. i know Un peu.

3. I can speak in tongues. Christian stuff. :) ( i Thank God for the gift of tongues.)

4. I make up my own vocab. and spelling.

The Materialish (?) Side:

1. I have an absolute soft spot for BROWN PAPER BAGS. absolute softnessity.

2. I dislike people who copy my vocab.

3. I dislike people who copy my.. style of personalization.

4. I like personalization. My own way.

5. I LOVE old stuff. i like my stuff to look old and used. makes it feel precious. :D

6. there are tons more.

The "My beliefs" side:

1. I believe Happy Old People/Folks are more precious than anyone/thing.

2. I don't really think Babies are precious. and obviously, i, too, don't think ALL babies are cute.

3. I Like being myself. and i know i am weird. and i'm extremely random. :D

The Me side:

1. I Like weird, uncommercialised music. :D

2. I, too, Like boy-bandish commercialized music. :D

3. I don't really care if people think i sing nice. but i like singing outloud.

4. I LOVE HUGS. i believe hugs are powerful the way they are.

5. I love it when people smile at me. It makes me feel comfortable. (of course, no creepy smiles.)

6. I am weird. (i know)

7. I can be REALLY irritating. (i know too :D)

8. I used to think/dig alot when i know of people who dislike me, but now, i don't really give (a damn). Cause i know people do (dislike me). :)

9. I HATE IT when people say "Whatever" to me. not in a sentence, but at the end of a sentence, or just. "Whatever" as a reply. I HATE IT. makes me feel like walking away/leaving the person alone.

10. It scares me to know someone's reading this.

11. I told you i'm weird. :D

kay. there's a whole lot more. but i think its kinda dumb typing out these stuff. so i shall stop already.

SHOOT. SHOOT. SHOOT.

Midsems are next week and i've not started studying yet :( :( :(

And. Whats with the recent addiction to ANIMAY. (anime. i have my own spelling.)

AH!!!!!.

I need help.


Anyway. Here are some photos i got from Gek's Blog. Taken after the OSIP interview. I think we look pretty darn good ay! :D We look Boss-ish, like. Tow-kay-ish.

We caught each other's eyes three times in one hour on friday.
When are we ever gonna say hello. Sigh.

Please don't SMS or Call me at my mobile. Cos i won't be able to reply.


SIGH

Thank you Qin, for spamming me everywhere. :D

i know it shows you care. teehee.

i absolutely love love love love love love love love Jesus.

Because HE is the greatest. The Grestest i have ever known, and will ever know. THE greatest.

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And i still absolutely adore Our Muddy Mollies, and Merry Munchies. they are absolutely Lovely. i can absolutely get fat while baking. seriously.


Anyway.

Haha. i went around peeking at people (People = Girls from camp.) and All the blogs i went to said that THEY LOVED THE CAMP. i think its really precious. and i think Melvin will be laughing his ST off if i tell him the girls loved the camp. O well. Hahaha.

And. HA. Tomorrow's the interview for OSIP (Overseas Student Internship Programme) I DO HOPE THE INTERVIEW will be a great success. Because i really really really really REALLY. want to go. although i know, to spend almost 3 months overseas without family is tough tough tough, PLUS my birthday's gonna be spent overseas with possibly my other roommate. : ( . but i do really wanna go. So i'm praying hard. :D


O wells. i'm done preparing my Resume (Reh-Zoo-May) praying my printer can print. teehee.

And i just learnt this afternoon that Melvin arranged with the girls to go for dinner in June! hopefully it'll be 8th of June. So Ros can make it, and IT'LL BE THE LAST DAY OF EXAMS. WHICH OF COURSE, totally rocks my socks.

So. God bless you. Whoever you are. Teehee. God knows you're reading reading reading my Brog man.

O PRAY FOR ME PLEASE. tomorrow's (24th May) interview is at 2.15pm. i need lotsa prayers. :D

This is what you get when unknowingly dump your specs in with a whole lot of smelly stinky camp laundry into the Turbo Washing Machine:

Seriously.