God has heard

Today, i just got down to thinking about the darkest period of my life (so far).

Have you had a period in your life where - if you think back now, most of it would be gray, and painful to even think about.

I've had mine. 'twas several months after my mom passed away, at that point, i was also trying to recover from a breakup with someone very dear. That was the same period i had trouble coping with my studies (Sec 3. tough year.)

Year 2003.


That was the year i had suicidal thoughts. That was the year i broke the most dishes. That was the year i cried the most and the hardest. That was the year where i spent most nights crying myself to sleep. That was the year where i experienced wanting someone so badly. That was also the year i struggled most with everything at home. That was the year i considered dying - i thought about how i should die. And i wondered, would he come to my funeral if i died.


Ah, those adolescent years. those morbid thoughts. those dark days. those gray memories.


dtjw. its time i let go.



OKAY! enough morbidity. :) Jesus will save me.