HELLO PEOPLE slash PERSON.

Yesterday night i received a very serious and bad bad bad mail in an envelope. It was a heart-wrenching mail. It was a mail of bad news.

It was a mail which made me feel disgust and Extreme sadness. all in a few minutes.

Lets see.

Sender: SPCA
Title: SPCA News

Kay first page, good news, updates..

Second page.

For those of you who aren't members of the SPCA, let me quote you some excerpts (which totally pains my heart)

ANIMAL ABUSE UPDATE

Cat Killed in AMK

"... report was received by AMK Police Division... witness that a cat had been killed by a screwdriver."

"The picture was horrifying and distressing, as the screwdriver was still embedded in the animal's rear with its tip coming out through the thigh area of the animal. The cat's mouth was full of blood, its tongue was in-between its front teeth, and one canine was broken."



Cats Found Dead

"... three kittens and a female cat were found dead..."

"The three kittens' skulls were crushed and the female cat's stomach was slit open."



Pet Dog Suffers For Days

" Received a call from the owner of a dog requesting that the dog be euthanised"

"... found the dog with its hind left paw stuck in a metal drainage cover... It was not possible to remove the paw without causing further distress to the animal."

"... the owner informed our staff that the dog had been stuck like that for FOUR days... attempts to remove the dog had failed..."


"... the dog's scrotal sac was severely swollen (to the size of an adult fist) possibly due to the fact that it was also caught in the metal mesh. There were several maggots on the scrotum and the dog probably had the wound for days."



ARE YOU KIDDING ME. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THOSE WHO DID WHATEVER THEY DID TO THOSE POOR ANIMALS.

I can't believe this is actually happening in Singapore. This is madness. And Its not like these newsletters come Once in a trillion years, THEY COME SO FREQUENTLY WITH ANIMAL-ABUSE ARTICLES DAMN IT.


I feel sick to my stomach.

And then i saw another SPCA mag in my shelf.

Lets read more about sick people and their sick sick SICK DEEDS.

just the titles:

MALTESE THROWN DOWN (from 22th level of a block)

KITTEN BEATEN (man hit a 2.5 month old kitten with a wooden pole)

CAT ABUSE ON VIDEO
(teenager violently kicks a stray cat he lured, two were involved, one abused while the other filmed.)

TWO STRAY DOGS FOUND DEAD (Dogs were poisoned to death by insecticide)

CATS FOUND DEAD

(Three boys were seen with a cat, cat was found with bleeding in the nose and mouth, had to be euthanased due to extreme pain and respiratory distress)

(Cat was found hanging from a staircase railing between the 6th and 7th floor)




WHATINTHEWORLDISWRONGWITHANIMALABUSERS.

sick.



sick.



sick.

I have decided to buy a Laptop.

:) I'm gonna trust God for a good deal.

AND YES. i thank God for that vision He has given me.


Lord if that is Your will for me, i pray you'll burn it deeper in me. So i won't ever forget the path you've planned for me.

All i have to offer is a willing heart and my hands. :D I will go.

I love Jesus.

TODAY has been long with a capital L, O, and N.



Throw in the G as well.



I'm happy that my friends tell me their .. troubles. Really am :) Thank you for sharing.

Today i've learnt many lessons. And i've decided, i'm nobody to judge. So i shall remain a neutral party.

Jon: God is pleased with you. And yes, i am praying for you. So don't worry bout it. If the owner of the car demands payment or what, i'll lend you some cash if you don't have enough :D

Debbie: Debbie dearest. I don't think you'll ever read this, because i think you'd rather Kick-box at Amore than surf online. :D Nevertheless. I love you. and No, don't feel bad please. Don't feel bad for anything. See you soon okay! :) Love ya.

Once again, today has been long. But i'm thankful today happened,


because I realized Jesus will always be by my side :)

TODAY! :D

today today today.

Well. Have you ever had fun going to an optician? GO WITH JESUS and you'd have tons of fun. :D

THATS WHAT I DID! :D As i followed my appointed quiet time (7pm) i felt led to spend time with Jesus in my neighbourhood today. So i prayed as i went out. I decided to get my specs done today AND I HAD A TON OF FUN. i had fun choosing frames. (i warned the optician of my choosiness and he survived it! HALLELUJAH!) And i had fun getting my eyesight tested. It got to a point where the optician had to stop the eye-test for a moment to "calm himself" (as quoted) Because he couldn't stop laughing. HA HA. It was such a funny moment.

I thank God. I thank God for showing me He's SUCH a great God. You know, like some people think religious matters are all hush-hush-serious-look-no-jokey-pokey kind. LET ME TELL YOU. My God has SUCH a good sense of humor. Ask around. He's such a laugh, and it amazes me. Really. It makes me love Him more.

Today i was on the bus, just pondering through. And somehow, i wondered if i Really did love God, like how so many of us always say we love Jesus, and all that. I wondered if i really did. And i thought, i don't think i do love God. Because i don't love my neighbours. Because i'm quite mean at times. Because i don't love my friends.

It saddened me to think i don't truly truly love God. But I WANT TO. I WANT TO. and i will. because the bible says, "We love because He first loved us." So i will love God, and thus learn to love everyone around me. I will get there, because i know God's gonna bring me there, all the way to the top. I know it. Because He is my God - of love. He's a God who will never let you go, even in your deepest darkest hour. He's a God who will never despise, because he came to save, not to judge. He's a God who loves you so much, He sent His only son, to die for you. YOU - reading this.

How can anyone not love God? :)


O. and to all whose QM is over and done, CONGRATULATIONS! AND CELEBRATIOOONS!

WAHYAI.

I'm Bleached. Tsk tsk tsk. Not good, Not good.

ZANGETSU ROCKS.

Oops. that was an unexpected outburst.

ANYWAY.

I'm coming down with a fru. FLU. Urg.

AND WHERE ARE MY BIO CHEM NOTES.

I thank Jesus for my life everyday. (:

As we're all rushing to complete and touch up our QM project,

My head is singing:

Cuz I-I-I-I LUr-Ur-Ur-URve the way you say good morning,
And Yo-O-o-U Take me the way I am.......

O well. I'm tired.

Special thanks to :

Nat (Thank you. You're such a Big help. i'd still be lost in that pile of work if you didn't take over compilation)

Xuan (Thank you dear. i hope your.. family episode will clear up soon :) Love.)

Gek (Thank you for worrying. and no, you're not gonna see my puffy eyes tmr cos Nat took over! YAY!)

Zul (Thank you! :) for chatting. and showing me your references. hahahah.)

WaiYiu (Thank you! :) You and all that lame stuff. I AM COOKIES AND WIN. :D )

OKAY! Time Check : 12.56am.

We should all catch some snooze soon. I needa showerh! :D

Ta-Ah!

Today's friday :)

Sigh. As i was walking home from the bus stop earlier (after school), was listening to some music and everything, there was a slight drizzle, and the ground had some puddles. And i was walking up a slope in heels, feet were aching a little (Urgh). It was about 8 plus.

and then "Bad day" by Daniel Powter came on. :D and i smiled to myself as i thought about my day.

Tons of ups and downs. The whole hustle bustle about FYP project group has thrown everyone off course. I could feel the pressure and everything, Everyone's just - Stressed. i guess. And as i looked and listened to Jessie, Hanqian (I Heart you), Kammie and Peiwen worry about their own groupings and all, seeing them tear - makes me wanna reassure them, i wanna tell them not to worry. Because i wasn't in a better position than them earlier, but God truly showed me that i could trust Him. and He has provided my group with a solution, Although it didn't go as planned, but i believe His will is gonna shine thru, and i truly believe Our FYP is gonna be great. :)

And then. Somehow, With everyone crying, laughing, joking, taking pictures, As we were walking towards the Audi for the BSC AGM, and we were making jokes like how we all look like we're from "The Apprentice" and all. It made me feel like we were a family. Seeing how everyone listened to Jessie and Hanqian when they were stressed up about their FYP really showed how much we (LIG Main Comm) care for one another, whether we realise it or not. Its true.

And, almost at once, i felt at peace, despite all the rejection and brain-juice-squeezing before BioChem Lecture. I felt at peace knowing that this bunch of us - Eve, Din, Felicia, Karen, Kachee, Smantee (LOVE YOU ALL. EVENTS ROCK.), Jessie, Hanqian, Nat, Gek, Yuwen and Myself - we are a family - I see it happening. i really do. :)

Well. I really hope i'd be able to go overseas for my internship with Nat! :D I CAN'T WAIT!. and HANQIAN (if you ever read this): GO. YOU MUST GO FOR THE INTERNSHIP. I'LL GIVE YOU SUPPORT (you know what kind of support la :) ) IF YOU NEED IT. LOVE! :)

Once again, LIG MAIN COMM ROCKS.

O. Some things i wanna say to my fellow main-commers. :)

Eve - Girl. you know i'll listen if you need to talk :) Don't keep things to yourself okay! I may not be able to help. But i'll be there if you need someone.

Din - My DEAREST DEAN DEAR. :) YOU. I thank you. for trusting me, for listening to me, and for talking to me, for EVERYTHING. THANK YOU.

KACHEE - You! With the damaged hair. :D Somehow i feel like you're slowly opening up to us after the LOM Camp. and i think its great! We should play the piano together some time man!

Smantee -SMANTEE <3. You are so crazy. and together, we're kinda mean aye. Like during the BSC AGM, making fun of the Emcee's accent and all. :D EVENTS ROCK.

Jessie - Jessie jessie! :) Would looove to get to know you better if i can. I think you're great! And. Don't worry about the FYP thing okay, i'll keep you in my prayers. :) It'll be fine.

HANQIAN - I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. i really think we should all go Bangkok again some day. :D AND Please Go for OSIP. I'll help you in whatever way i can, It's a GREAT opportunity so don't let it go okay! :) I LOVE YOU.

Yuwen - Yuwen! :) I, too, definitely want to get to know you more. Really. And thanks for talking to me online - regarding the smoking stuff. I won't forget it :)

GEK! - WEEGEK! I want the BSC AGM photos!!!!! :D kay. apart from that, YOUR ENGLAND IS OKAY LA. :) You should have more confidence in yourself :) Thank you for doing projects with me. Your presence has taught me alot of stuff, even though i'm sure you don't realise it.

NATO - ICAN'TWAITTOGOOSIPWITHYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really really can't wait. I'M SO EGGCITED. Thank you thank you for staying up so late, squeezing brain juice for QM. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. :D

Felicia - PLease don't feel bad. (FYP thing) DON'T. :) I'm really okay. I think your group will be great :D WO-AI-NEE.

KAREN - :D Thank you. i don't know what exactly i wanna thank you for, but i know I WANNA THANK YOU. Your presence has taught me lotsa stuff. THANK YOU. I LOVE YOUR GHOST STORIES, they're so scary, it makes me not wanna listen :D


OKAY! there's alot more to say. but i think i'd wait till graduation or something. I truly Thank God for each one of the main-commers. :D THank you Jesus.

If i could, i would adopt a dog and cat from SPCA.

If i could, i would tell everyone i know how much they mean to me.

If i could, i would work with animals for a living.

If i could, i would have a show on Animal Planet.

If i could, i would not sin.

If i could, i would choose to love.

If i could, i would turn back time, and slap myself in the head.

Lord. would you forgive me. I know i'm a sinner, but you died on the cross for our sins. And so, by your grace and mercy, forgive me. Thank you Jesus. I love you.

I'm a bad bad bad bad person.

ARH-MUN-ARH-MUN-ARH-MUN-ARH.

I feel so ess-ai-ay-en.

maybe its because i just left Ee's house after staying there for more than a week. I feel like i miss screaming-Jedd already. I miss Watching anime with Chloe. I miss Talk ing to Zackee. I miss "AY! SHHH!!-ing" at Jedd. I miss Ee. : (

Maybe its because i start school tmr. ARGH. the thought of all the projects (which i'm currently worrying about.) and getting back all the tests results. BAH. I AM worried. i am worried i won't do well. i'm worried.

And i feel cranky. :< This is bad. i need to pray.

O Father father. (Emo.) Why am i feeling so sian. (emo. emo.) I hate being Emo.
So please take this feeling away. And bless me with Your joy!
O Lord, You, and only You know my worries, and my burdens.
Lord i pray You will teach me to trust in You.
That thru' all these experiences, i will grow stronger, and i will learn to rely on Your strength.
I want to grow. i really want to grow.
I want to experience the Joy of knowing everything is in Your control.
I want to Go all out for You, while at the same time, Rest in Your everlasting love.

Jesus, i Love you. But teach me to grow in that Love.
Teach me Your greatest commandment - To Love others as thyself.
I really want to learn, to love.
Lord, each time my impatience takes over, Teach me. Reveal to me. Mold me.

I want to love.

Thank you Jesus. :) I feel better already.

Okay. There doesn't seem to be Transport Tutorial. Neither is there LOMe Tutorial.

So, Next on my To-Do-Tonight-Before-Indulging-in-Bleach-And-Naruto-List:

1. Draw up planner and plan dates.
2. Read up and refresh memory for all projects.
3. Pray for 100K.
4. Indulge! :)

Been rather bored lately, holiday's too short to work. Can't wait to get my pay from the bintan trip. I thank God for the Bintan experience :D Taught me alot of things. I thank God that He's teaching me, guiding me, digging deeper. Issues i've never known about myself are slowly surfacing. I'm happy God's dealing with me! It's definitely a difficult process. But its all part of God's plan. :)


I'm gonna do something to my hair later. Maybe i should colour it purple. Although i was thinking maybe Orange. Maybe HAHHAHA. okay. i should stick to more conservative colours lest i shock my fellow homosapiens.


OKAY. i'd better get back to NARUTO spree. i'm done waiting for Shippuden. SO LONG. >:( so i've started what i didn't finish last time.
Why is my font size so big.

IAMBACKFROMBINTAN :D

Too tired to detail-post.

Was great. i learnt alot. Spiritual lessons.
Discovered new emotions. (Ha-Ha-Ha)

Got Sick, still sick. (Fever plus asthma. Pure bad timing.)
Hence i didn't do much.


Will blog more soon. To all who tagged when i was overseas. THANK YOU FOR READING :)

Hanqian: I HEART YOU. blame it on my carelessness okay! :(

LOM Camp :)

Was great. i thought it couldn't have been better. KaChee did great, i think. I feel Happy, seeing all the participants participate actively, especially the seniors. Didn't think they'd be enthusiastic really, but i was wrong! With Saliheen and Kenneth's Special Performance, and Jeric's and Eden's Ultraman Act, and Qiwei and Fadzly's Tree Thing. Hahahha. :D Thank you all.

Okay. Since Sam, Din and i planned Cluedo, i shall explain it to those who didn't manage to solve it. :)

Din, a filthy rich man, has Jessie as his wife, and together, they had Gek. But Din has an affair with Felicia. Jessie wants Din's money, and thought that if he died, she (as his wife) would inherit his assets. So she kills Din by hiring a mechanic to tamper with his brakes, and hence Din dies in a "Car accident".

BUT. She soon discovers that Din had willed all his assets to their only son, Gek. Felicia got angry as she thought the love she shared with Din was strong enough for her to get a share of his assets, she thus felt that her wrath can only be satisfied by killing Gek, and hence, plots to kill him. (Voodoo drawing.)

Now. Gek is married to Evelyn, and has two beautiful daughters - Natasha and Karen. But! as the saying "Like father, Like Son" goes, Gek too has a mistress - Yuwen, and together, they have HanQian. HanQian is engaged to KaCheong (hahahah!). Somehow, KaChee knows that Gek has willed a third of his assets (inherited by Din's death) to his Legitimate daughters (Karen and Nat) and the remaining two-thirds of his assets to HanQian.

With this knowledge, Kachee plots to kill Gek, and eventually does it in an accident (Gek was stabbed.). And so, HanQian is now filthy rich. :D -end-

DISCLAIMER: Any resemblance to actual characters or happenings is purely coincidental.

:D i think the story feels incomplete. maybe in the future when i'm free, i'll extend the.. LIG Main Comm Tangle.

Thank you Din! for the doughnut-factory Doughnuts! and Thank you Mrs Wee for the 40 Pratas!. Thank you Mr Foo for your active participation in Cluedo! Thank you Eve for sharing :) i love you. Thank you *HanQian(sorry!! :D <3), Jessie, Yuwen, Nat, Karen, Felicia, Smantee! I love you all. Thank you KaCheong! :D You were great. and i'm sorry the photo-thing didn't work out as planned. And, of course, Gek. Please take care :) We missed you at camp.

Okay. I am fever-ing. This is bad. i'm overseas-ing tmr. God, Heal me please.

To: Melvin (Chia) (Saitor.)

(If you ever do read this.) I truly, from the bottom of my rather small (but growing bigger) heart, thank God for you, For your presence in my life. I think its the little things that you say, and the stuff i learn from you, changes my thinking, and helps my spirit grow. I think God works wonders, and i still find it strange how sometimes i find it so easy to talk to you about Christian-hood and stuff. Of course i do hope that you'd share stuff with me too, be it about camps or just whatever. But i sincerely believe it is God's plan that we become friends. So i thank God for you. :D

This page of Quality Tutorial is for:

1. Gennie ong - to remind her to start studying. and CONCENTRATE.
2. Gennie's Friends - to remind them to start studying. and CONCENTRATE.
3. Gennie's Friends who are laughing at her cause they need not study. - Go away. >: (

As i prepare for my Materials Management paper at 3 whilst listening to The Way I Am on my brog, i realise something.

I miss Jesus. <3

No, i'm not hallucinating whatsoever. Jesus is real, and i miss Him so. My friend, my father, my life, my hope, my love, my lover.

My new love for Indie music. <3

Actually, its not really New. I've always liked Indie Music. I just didn't know that that kinda music belongs to the "Indie" genre.

AND I CAN'T TURN OFF THE AUTO-PLAY. >: (

Anyway. You're listening to "The Way I Am" by Ingrid Michaelson.

I Love this song. It's an ear worm.

Lyrics:

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine if you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

-the way i am, Ingrid Michaelson.

Bla.

Just came back from Dinner with Sherwyn. Car ride was good :D Thanks to Olivia who was singing to us through out the journey from the CD player.


My mind's Stuffed with Thoughts. and my mind's empty at the same time. i'm feeling quite horrid.

O well. Transport paper's tmr. Please please pray for me. i'm not really confident this time. but i want to do well. Well - Who doesn't.

So. :D I'm gonna start studying after i bathe, again. So many baths, i've taken.

Was reading thru someone's blog. Let's hear about her:

I was in the same class as her for about a year. I found her intimidating. and Boisterous. (okay. thats not really a nice word. but i can't find any other. my Engrish.) and. I don't know. O well.

Was reading her blog. and all her issues with this guy she can't seem to let go off made me wonder about what i used to be/feel when i broke up with my "relationshipee" when i was in secondary school. All her emoness reminded me of my own emoness. (Warning: This may very well be an emo post. Brace Yourselves.)

I've always always always thought of her as a really strong person. But after reading her blog and all. She doesn't seem that strong. hmm. makes me realise that everyone has a door that leads to a weaker being within themselves.

But God says, When you're weak, you are strong.

Because when we're weak, we look to God. and God IS STRENGTH. GOD IS LIFE. GOD IS HOPE. and above all,


God is Love.


Anyway. Recently there's another person, who seems to be getting on my nerves. I have no idea why. but its just.. the things he says. REALLY. ARGH. i know i'm evil, but sometimes (in all my evilnessity,) i just ignore him, and give him a blunt "Okay". I know i know. *points to myself, and say "EVIIILLLL"*

I really need God's love. Because God didn't call us to love those who are easy to love, but, Love the unlovely ones. I'm not saying he's unlovely whatsoever. Everyone is unlovely in their own ways. I'm unlovely in my own way too. So. we all need God's love to "love thy neighbour as thyself". Serious.

I miss Lifeskills Enrichment. I miss Ros, Melvin, Melnana, Stephen.

I miss Huimin. <3

And I miss Auntie Laigek, Cheryl, Lynne, Karthi, and the whole Papadum gang at church!!!!!!! The Papadum gang is LOVE.

And to Uncle Jit. Enough with the Match-making and *AHEM*-teasing already. GOODNESS. EV-E-RY SUNDAY. You're such a nutty person. Totally can't imagine you lecturing SRJC studs.

O well. i miss so many people.

And to think if i Get to go for OSIP (WOO HOO!! HALLELUJAH!!) I'm gonna be missing even more people. And Ah. All my committments. gotta make so many arrangements.

And my spiritual family. AH. all the aunties and sisters. WE ROCK FCBC.

I'm glad i can love. i'm glad i love. Quote, I love because You first loved me. (Quote from bible la.)

Love - Who doesn't believe in love?

ME. i decided to do something random.

So here are some stuff, which i think are quite unknown. unless you're family. or. me, being random, mentioned them.

the Buggy side:

1. I have eaten (crunched) Ten live beetles, Fear-factor style. HAH!. Whatever la. Papa who used to go to temples said the monk said those beetle would cure my asthma. SO. he made me close my eyes, and he popped them into my mouth. they were............. spicy.

2. I Once stepped on a cockroach with my bare foot. ACCIDENT, of course. TOTALLY GROSS. still makes me shiver. YUCK. and it popped. LITERALLY, POPPED. SO SO SO SO SO SO SO GROSS. YUCK YUCK YUCK. I screamed and jumped all over the place and washed my foot with body soap, hand wash and shampoo.

3. I HATE WORMS. HATE. ABHOR. DETEST. LOATHE.

The Language side:

1. I HATE, (kay. not hate. but TOTALLY DISLIKE WITH A HUGE AMOUNT OF DISLIKATION.) people (esp. Girls) Who talk like "Ai know eeu Lurb me wor." And they always use a whole lot of symbols. like, example, they're "about me":

(*^@*^|| i Am born a Pink Princess||^*@^*)

This example is pure minimal. My goodness. SPEAK/TYPE PROPERLY.
And i think people who type loads of symbols, are just too free.

2. I adore the French Language. i know Un peu.

3. I can speak in tongues. Christian stuff. :) ( i Thank God for the gift of tongues.)

4. I make up my own vocab. and spelling.

The Materialish (?) Side:

1. I have an absolute soft spot for BROWN PAPER BAGS. absolute softnessity.

2. I dislike people who copy my vocab.

3. I dislike people who copy my.. style of personalization.

4. I like personalization. My own way.

5. I LOVE old stuff. i like my stuff to look old and used. makes it feel precious. :D

6. there are tons more.

The "My beliefs" side:

1. I believe Happy Old People/Folks are more precious than anyone/thing.

2. I don't really think Babies are precious. and obviously, i, too, don't think ALL babies are cute.

3. I Like being myself. and i know i am weird. and i'm extremely random. :D

The Me side:

1. I Like weird, uncommercialised music. :D

2. I, too, Like boy-bandish commercialized music. :D

3. I don't really care if people think i sing nice. but i like singing outloud.

4. I LOVE HUGS. i believe hugs are powerful the way they are.

5. I love it when people smile at me. It makes me feel comfortable. (of course, no creepy smiles.)

6. I am weird. (i know)

7. I can be REALLY irritating. (i know too :D)

8. I used to think/dig alot when i know of people who dislike me, but now, i don't really give (a damn). Cause i know people do (dislike me). :)

9. I HATE IT when people say "Whatever" to me. not in a sentence, but at the end of a sentence, or just. "Whatever" as a reply. I HATE IT. makes me feel like walking away/leaving the person alone.

10. It scares me to know someone's reading this.

11. I told you i'm weird. :D

kay. there's a whole lot more. but i think its kinda dumb typing out these stuff. so i shall stop already.

SHOOT. SHOOT. SHOOT.

Midsems are next week and i've not started studying yet :( :( :(

And. Whats with the recent addiction to ANIMAY. (anime. i have my own spelling.)

AH!!!!!.

I need help.


Anyway. Here are some photos i got from Gek's Blog. Taken after the OSIP interview. I think we look pretty darn good ay! :D We look Boss-ish, like. Tow-kay-ish.

We caught each other's eyes three times in one hour on friday.
When are we ever gonna say hello. Sigh.

Please don't SMS or Call me at my mobile. Cos i won't be able to reply.


SIGH

Thank you Qin, for spamming me everywhere. :D

i know it shows you care. teehee.

i absolutely love love love love love love love love Jesus.

Because HE is the greatest. The Grestest i have ever known, and will ever know. THE greatest.

Thank you all for supporting ADAVIE. we heart you. and we'll be in business again next monday! So please do do do come by!. If you wanna pre-order please mail us at merryadavie@gmail.com, or visit our webby!
We're terribly sorry if you came by on monday and couldn't get what you want cos we were sold out. Please PRE-ORDER!! :D O yes. we may be coming up with new flavours for our Mirthy Mimi Cupcakes!

And i still absolutely adore Our Muddy Mollies, and Merry Munchies. they are absolutely Lovely. i can absolutely get fat while baking. seriously.


Anyway.

Haha. i went around peeking at people (People = Girls from camp.) and All the blogs i went to said that THEY LOVED THE CAMP. i think its really precious. and i think Melvin will be laughing his ST off if i tell him the girls loved the camp. O well. Hahaha.

And. HA. Tomorrow's the interview for OSIP (Overseas Student Internship Programme) I DO HOPE THE INTERVIEW will be a great success. Because i really really really really REALLY. want to go. although i know, to spend almost 3 months overseas without family is tough tough tough, PLUS my birthday's gonna be spent overseas with possibly my other roommate. : ( . but i do really wanna go. So i'm praying hard. :D


O wells. i'm done preparing my Resume (Reh-Zoo-May) praying my printer can print. teehee.

And i just learnt this afternoon that Melvin arranged with the girls to go for dinner in June! hopefully it'll be 8th of June. So Ros can make it, and IT'LL BE THE LAST DAY OF EXAMS. WHICH OF COURSE, totally rocks my socks.

So. God bless you. Whoever you are. Teehee. God knows you're reading reading reading my Brog man.

O PRAY FOR ME PLEASE. tomorrow's (24th May) interview is at 2.15pm. i need lotsa prayers. :D

This is what you get when unknowingly dump your specs in with a whole lot of smelly stinky camp laundry into the Turbo Washing Machine:

Seriously.

Hahaha. Today a million people have asked me if i'm okay. Thank you for your concern people :) i appreciate it.

But i really don't know what to say to that question, or how to answer it. Because i know the truth is, i'm not okay. i hate to admit it, but i know i'm not okay. But i'd have to explain a whole lot of stuff if i were to answer, "No, i'm not really okay. teehee." and.. its only normal to say "i'm fine" to the "Are you okay?" Question. ( And i really feel grateful that that person asks out of concern. but. sometimes, the truth is.. difficult to tell.)

So i decided, i'm just gonna smile and say, i'm fine, don't worry :)

To all you whom i've ignored or given one-worded answers to today, i'm sorry, sincerely.
i'm really tired. and have been tired. Physically, Mentally and emotionally. Its more than just the camps and baking i guess. I believe the Lord's doing something in my Life now, and its just a phase in my spiritual life that i have to go through. i'm thankful God's doing His work in my life, Cause otherwise, i'd be kinda useless.

I thank God that He's teaching me, and guiding me. I thank God for making me feel certain feelings to remind me i should rely on Him, and trust Him.

Just tonight, i was walking home from the MRT station, and i suddenly felt nostalgic, i felt blue. i Hate feeling blue. Its just so... Blooo. Bleh. Blay. Bloh. Blurk. and my mind started to wander, and my heart started to miss certain people i shouldn't be missing. and Right there and then, i told God i didn't want those emotions. i didn't want to feel all moody and sad and Blooo all day. And the Bible says if you seek God, You'll find Him. So i did, i told God i want Him, more than anything else. And RIGHT at that moment, His Love came down on me, and i felt nothing but His love, comfort and embrace.

Shepherd of my soul, I give You full control,
Wherever You may lead, I will follow.
I have made a choice, To listen for Your voice,
Wherever You may lead, i will Go.

Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream,
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side.
May i face a mighty mountain, or a valley dark and deep,
The shepherd of my soul, will be my guide.

I thank God for Marcus. Marcus, Thank you for listening to me, and thank you for asking me to share, and always assuring me that i can talk to you. Talking to you made me feel better :) And it still irritates me that you're leaving in a month's time. >:( We better meet up before you leave ah.

I thank God for Ros. :) Ros, i'm thankful that sometimes, we don't have to say anything when we're with each other, but yet, still feel comforted. I'm thankful that you're so easy to talk to because we understand each other. i'm thankful i can tell you anything and everything and not fear bout you judging me. i'm thankful we can laugh about armpit hair. :)

And Xuan!! :) i'm really sad we can't go OSIP together. i was SO looking forward. if i do get to go, i'd be missing you 3,762,905.79 times everyday. and thank you for reading my brog. and don't worry, :) i am sad, but i'll be fine, because i've got Jesus with me :)

And to all who reads Gennie's Brog, :) tahaha. Thanks for reading!

Jesus. Love of my life.

Something happened during MGS camp. And on the third day of camp i finally cried it out with Ros by my side (i Love you Ros.) I know some would say it isn't a bad thing, or it isn't wrong. But, it is. Because the Bible says so.

I felt so convicted. And i know it is nothing more than a spiritual attack. Because i could really sense that i was drawing closer to God, Depending more on Him, Trusting Him more, and Loving Him more. And because i was growing, i got spiritually attacked.

I know, i know. Non-believers would think i'm talking gibber-gubber. But believe me, the Devil is real as can be. Just wait and see.

Logic is, if you're not a threat to the Kingdom of darkness (i.e. Not growing spiritually) why would the devil even bother with you. See. The spiritual Realm is a spooky place. But with God's holy presence, i believe, there's nothing to fear. NOTHING.

Anyway. i was on the cab, still feeling and thinking about everything. and The Holy Ghost brought to mind, what Jackie Pullinger said. She said, Everyone has a race to run, and everyone's race is different. No one said the race would be easy, No one. And of course, it will be difficult, there'll be times where you'll trip, stumble and fall. Its okay to fall, its okay to finish your race with bloody knees. Because what matters is that you pick yourself up, and finish the race for Jesus.

And i teared in the cab, Knowing those were God's exact words for me - "It's okay to fall." i knew i had fallen. i knew it from day one. but i refused to admit it. And when i finally did, i felt so convicted.

My spirit was so broken, when i reached the Church Encounter and felt God's holy presence, i couldn't help but cry. and all i did was cry. and i thank God for my spiritual family who hugged me and cried with me even though they knew not what i was crying about. Thats what a spiritual family is for. They're a bunch of people who'll bring you an umbrella in a storm, and possibly get wet with you.

And truly, for the first time, i truly felt my broken spirit. and i cried. and told God i didn't want whatever it was. i Didn't was whatever it was that happened. And God, hahahha, He truly works wonders.

Whatever it was that happened, I'm healed, restored, and i'm resting in the love of God's embrace.

I confessed whatever there was to confess, and i repented. and i'm forgiven! :D

I know. To all you non-believers, you may think i'm kinda nuts-ish about this Whole God-Jesus Thing. To tell you the truth, i Am. i really am. and i wanna go Nuts about God and Jesus and The Holy Spirit.

You think i'm nuts-ish because you think its only a religion, only a belief, and you feel that way because you think you can work things out with your own strength. But dear friend. Christianity, is not a religion. i know. Tons of people say it. But have you ever considered why they say it?

Because its really really not a religion. Its not a belief. Its a Life. its MY life. I know everyone knows there are stuff you can't control, Aren't you scared that there are things you can't control? Who doesn't like to know that everything is in control? But fact of the matter is. Life doesn't work that way. I know it, and you do too.

And come on, Who doesn't know that Life comes with troubles? Its sort of like a package, isn't it? I'm not saying Life as a Christian would be free-and-easy, trouble-free. No. Who ever said that is lying right smack in your face. and yes, you can laugh at that person's face if he/she tells you that.

Everyone's lives comes with troubles, preiods of depression, financial difficulties, emotional struggles, mental breakdowns, i'm sure there are tons more. Whose life doesn't come with all these added ingredients?

Christians get that crap too, all the time. But we know, we know that there's someone there we can depend on, we know that someone's got our back, we know that that someone will never stab us in the back and run away. And needless to say, that someone is Jesus. So, What harm is there, in knowing someone as good as such?

I thank God for my spiritual Family. Everyone. Aunty Betty ( my Spiritual Mummy.), aunty Sophia, Callie, Nancy, Fiona, Jessie, Soh Eng, Prescilia, Sarah, Amy, Geok Yan, Charlyn, Charon, And auntie Pauline. I'm thankful to all. i know there're more. MUCH MUCH MANY MANY more. i love you all.

(i think this is a long post.)

Sure. there are times i think of the possibility of disobeying God, and do what my emotions tell me to. But then i think about abandoning my faith, and everything else of the world grows faint. Because i cannot imagine my life without Jesus. I just can't. Who am i gonna think about when i wake up in the morning? Where will i be going in life? What are my goals gonna be? What am i gonna do? Who am i gonna talk to when i'm sad? Who do i ask for for friends when i need them? Who's gonna be there when everything else fails? When my friends stab me in the back, when my love ones leave me, when everything else crashes, Who's gonna be there? i can't. i can't imagine a life without Jesus. i just can't.

I'm going to heaven when i die. and i can't wait for that day. i don't think there's anything wrong in saying that. Because that's THE day. Its the day i'm gonna meet Jesus, its the day i'm gonna see His face, its the day.

YAYNESS. Blogger is back. seriously. the server's a little Konky. quite frustrating sometimes.

Anyway. This week would be/already is the bee-zee-est (busiest) week of... any random period.

Lets see.

Note: Encounter - something like a church camp. but its more expensive, cos you put up at a hotel. or in this case, YMCA (not too shabby! :D)

Monday - Classes till four. Got materials needed for Church Encounter.
Tuesday (today) - Classes till one. Rushed down to PLMGS for Games Dry run.
Wednesday - Classes till three. To go home, Pack bag (TONS OF STUFF), prepare my prop for Encounter. Rush down to Nanny's to get stuff. Rush down to Ee's to pass some stuff.
Thursday - PLMGS CAMP = Madness, Madness, and More madness.
Friday - Still at PLMGS CAMP! = Tired, and Mad people.
Saturday - PLMGS CAMP until morning. Rush down to Encounter at YMCA.
Sunday - ENCOUNTER! :D possibly, rush down to church for work (if necessary)

So.................................... Big week man.

And i'm doing devotion for second day at PLMGS camp! :D I'm quite pleased about it, cause somehow i feel i'm ready. But i really need need need God's guidance. I think i need Jesus to "ra-ra" the crowd for me. teehee. But i'm really pleased that i volunteered to help Melvin. Cos he seemed pretty.. loaded. :D

But something tells me Melvin will do fine. I think its God telling me that. :)

Thank you Jesus. For Your Unconditional Love, Your Breath of Life which renews us, and above all, The Holy Spirit who is with us every single moment. i love you.

I never thought you'd be one to break my heart but you did. What's with all your bad habits. I know you know what i'm talking about.

You think we don't know. Or you don't wanna think we know. But we know. Because we're your family dammit.

But i believe. i believe nothing i say will change anything - Until you hit your personal bottom. And when you do, we will still be here. Because we're your family.

I Love you. i love you so much. and i can't bring myself to say it. Please Spare a thought for Papa. We all Love you so much.

i wish. i wish you would talk to me. i'm not gonna point fingers and blame you whatsoever. Just talk to me. and i promise i'll listen.

Because i'm your sister. Your only sister.

This is post is dedicated to the LomIG Exco. :D

I think. we are really great :D (yes i'm being big headed) but i think this MainComm is what it is today because of every single one in that picture below.

And this picture. is Love <3.



So here's to (Left to right):
(Back) KaChee. Felicia. Eve. Gek. Karen. Myself. Dean Dear.
(Front) Nat. Smantee. Jessie. Hanqian. Yuwen.

WE ROCK :D

This post is dedicated to Gek :D

Who has helped me change my brog and everything.

AND LOOK AT THAT SPCA BANNER. its Love. <3

HEllo me! :D
Hello LOM Centre 1!
Hello Weegek beside me!
Hello Evelyn and Smantee behind me!


I think there are pros and cons to having the same people in your group for projects.

That was our topic. And thats my opinion.

hehe.

Lets hear what happened at the clinic:

Me: bla bla.. Still on medication for throat infection.. bla bla bla.. Not completed my course of antibiotics.

Doc: O. in that case, you stop that course of antibiotics, and i'll give you another course - for your eyes.

Me: O....................................................... okay.


(Alot more talking.)


Me: So i can still go to school as usual? There's nothing i cannot do right?

Doc: NO. You cannot go out, Cause Conjunc can spread, its contagious. i think 3 days of rest is enough.

Me: O......................................................... okay.


DARN. i really really really don't wanna miss school anymore. so i've just decided. i'm going to school tmr. and i shall warn everyone not to touch their eyes before washing their hands. i don't want my conjunc to spread.


Anyway. Today. i thought it would be safer for me to stay home. so i did. missed church :(
I had nothing to do. so i randomly dragged out my photo albums and started flipping through. I saw.

Many pictures. Pictures of my mum. My dad. myself. my brother. my dog. my GrandmaS. my cousins. and everyone else.

And i just started reminiscing. i realised i miss my mum so much. its been 4, 5 years since she went home. and i know there were times i really missed her. i remembered, a few months after she passed away, and the aftermath was coming at my family full blast. i cried myself to sleep almost every night for a few weeks, hugging my bolster, missing my mummy's goodnight kisses, her laughs, her nagging, her hugs, her. i miss how she would switch off my bedroom lights, walk over to kiss me goodnight, and sometimes she'd lie with me on my bed till i fall asleep.

So. i was just sitting there in my living room with several stacks of dusty photo albums, and i started to cry to myself.

Then i came across photos of the first holiday we took as a family with my maternal aunt and her family. It was the first holiday without mummy. It was the holiday we all needed - to finally take a break, and catch our breaths. I didn't realise it was that particular holiday at first, and i was wondering, How come there aren't shots of my mum. and then it hit me. She was probably in the wind, messing up our hairs.

I was Fourteen when she passed away. Actually 13, she passed a month before my 14th birthday. God, i miss her. I was her Bahbah. and she gave me that name (to all you who call me Bahbah.).

And i'm quite relieved that not one person has ever said "i know how you feel" to me regarding this before. Because, if you haven't lost a mum, you don't know. I thank God i'm not one of those who can't talk about what happened or can't face the truth. I'm open :) if you wanna know more just ask. Its okay. And don't apologise. There's really nothing to be sorry about. Seriously.

Sometimes i think, if mummy didn't pass away. Everything would be different. Everything. But no, :) it was God's will. and i thank God for it. no that i want mummy to die. But, i'm seeing a teensy bit of God's big plan. And. God doesn't make mistakes. *phew*

I know. When people complain about their mummy-s. i know. sometimes mummy-s can be annoying. mine was too! (sometimes la.) (and sometimes i'd really really get angry with her.) but then She's your mummy :) i believe its a divine arrangement that she's your mother. So. you can get angry slash annoyed, whatever. At the end of the day, YOU KNOW nothings gonna change, She's still there. and She will be there. so Love her.


Me to mummy: Mummy i miss you so much. and i really really can't wait to see you again. You must remember me okay. Don't play with the clouds in heaven so much you forget me. I love you. -Bahbah.

Kay. Throat infection, so i can't sing. DARn. i miss singing. and no, don't really care what anyone thinks of my singing. Heh. i sing for Jesus! :D

Anyway. i'm praying that my throat infection won't evolve into Pneumonia. Cos the last time it did. and PNEUMONIA SUCKS. stupid foggy lung.

I wanna share this song. Its a really really special song (to me). Because the first time i heard it, i fell in love with it. But its such an unknown song - No one knows it :( so i couldn't share my joy. And then once, i was talking over the phone with my boyfriend of sec 3, with the song playing on the background, and he heard it, and he said he knew and Liked that song playing in the background. And that Made my day. and of course, it Made more than one day :D. And That boyfriend is special :) Really. Special. :)

So Anyway, its by Savage Garden, Entitled Two Beds and a Coffee Machine: (Enjoy!)

And she takes another step                 
Slowly she opens the door            
Check that he is sleeping
Pick up all the broken glass 
and furniture on the floor                                           
Been up half the night screaming 
now it's time to get away             
Pack up the kids in the car
Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write

Chorus

Another ditch in the road 
You keep moving
Another stop sign  
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast  
Wonder how I ever made it through

Verse

And there are children to think of                
Baby's asleep in the backseat                
Wonder how they'll ever make it 
through this living nightmare             
But the mind is an amazing Thing     
Full of candy dreams and new toys and
another cheap hotel
Two beds and a coffee machine                        
But there are groceries to buy                               
And she knows she'll have to go home 

Chorus

Another ditch in the road 
You keep moving
Another stop sign  
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast  
Wonder how I ever made it through


Gennie Loves you :)

Let me first begin with a shout, such as:

I HEART MAXIMUM RIDE :D

some FYIs, Maximum Ride is a trilogy by James Patterson. (I HEART JP) and yes. i truly enjoy JP's Books. I think, for me, its truly (Horrendously) Difficult to be able to read a book, and FOLLOW THROUGH. Its just difficult la.
and i read at an amazingly slow speed. like that time i was reading Dan Brown's Digital Fortress, i finished it in like 2 weeks or so, and i thought that was super duper fast since it was the fastest i had ever read. So i (Proudly, ahem) told my boyfriend (then) that i finished the book in 2 weeks. And he said, nonchalantly, "i finished it in 2 days dear." And later, i found out that most of my friends who read Digital Fortress finished it within 3 days tops. :(

Anyway. i love love love love love love love love James Patterson's Books. LOVE. They are absolutely page-turners. and sO ADDICTIVE!

In case you don't know JP's genre of stories, he writes thrillers. Mostly Murder/Detective stories. some "Scenes" are quite Gory. Ma-Ma-Mi-ah. (Not that i like Gore. No. i don't really like it.) and i love how his chapters are not longer than 2-3 pages. keeps it brief and nice.


ANYWAY. MAXIMUM RIDE. i'm currently on my second book. and YAY! for the first time i finished a book in 2 days! TWO DAYS!. thats got to be some sort of record or what.

Okay okay. i did it in 2 days because i had a fever last night and the whole of today. thats why i stayed home. And when you're having a fever you get the body aches and head aches, and nausea, and empty stomach, and body aches, and head aches, and O, the fever itself, and feeling cold, feeling hot, feeling bleh-y.

There's nothing much one can do with all that extra baggage. And so. most of the time i'm on my back in my bed, reading MAXIMUM RIDE! and now that i'm done with it, i'm not really happy with myself.

HOW CAN I FINISH IT SO FAST. :< Too dang fast. Now i'm lost. cos there's nothing to do. and i don't read books twice. (Whats the point in reading a book twice?! you know the plot AND the ending. and you've already read it before!!)

So. i'm still feverish. So. So. so. i don't think i'm going school tmr. Shoot. Mr Selwyn Lim's gonna nag me again. -_-

AND yesterday. i went out with Choy and Ros. my two loves. <3

And i did the DiSC test again since there were old ones. AND MY O MY. MY PERSONALITY HAS CHANGED. and this change is just... weird, i think.

Lets see. my first graph (Public Self, or your Mask) says I-S. Which is normal. :D thats me.

BUT my second graph (Private Self) (Means who i really am), says S-C-I. THATS SO DIFFERENT.
All my three graphs used to be I-S. I've changed so much!! to think my S and C (even) is higher than my I. shock shock shock. And as Mika would sing, Shock Shock Me, Shock Shock Me. (Love today)

okay. if you don't know the DiSC thing, All of the above i just Bla-ed would sound like Hippopotamuses Haw-hee-ing in your head.

And. i'm lazy. and i can't be bothered to explain the whole DiSC thing here. so i'd do it again some other time.



O YAY! Papa just called to take my dinner order to buy food back for me. Lets see.

Today i've eaten

1. two cups of Homemade Barley (BLEAH)
2. 3 Crackers (throat was screaming in pain so i had to stop.)
3. one mouth of milo (Stupid fever made me feel nauseous. so i threw the whole cup away.)
4. 3 Braised Peanuts. (ALL my efforts into opening that can. and then 3 nuts and i felt nauseous. AM I PREGNANT OR WAHT)
5. Nothing else.

Thats one Hell Of an appetite Bay-beh!. :D

Okay. i'm gonna bathe, again. Blah.


Byebye you! :D (And, you must be really free to read all the above i've just randomly typed. Have a good day! :D)

The illusionist. - WATCH IT BAY-BEH.

this show. is bloody good. (blo-deh-goood)

and Myojo Tom Yam flavoured Instant Noodles - Fantabudeliciouslous.



Bravo to Edward Norton, and the creator of Myojo Thai Tom Yam Noods.

Her Hundredth Post.

You gave me my first bouquet of flowers and my first bag of biscuits. Thank you :) it stays in my head forever.

You were late, we were supposed to go to church. and when you came. you said "damn. i'm so gonna regret not getting that cute girl's number when i wake up tmr feeling normal". i was nonchalant. but in my head, you were dead as a meatloaf.

You shouted in exasperation, "Can you not call my house phone. you woke everyone up." i'm sorry.

You told her you didn't love me. :) i still wonder.

You told her you wanted to be with her because you were my number five, but you were her number one. Did you not know, you were my number one? :)

It saddens me to think you used to compare yourself to him. i never did.

I remember. We were at the stairs, it was after church, and you told me what you told me. i will always remember the way you looked when you told me you were sorry. :) i love you.

It was after school, on 315. I got on the bus, and you were there with her. And she told me you got angry because i lied. did i?

When you came back from your holiday and found out everything, why didn't you answer my calls? Why didn't you come out to meet me when i was in the rain at your door? Was that not enough?

I remember. the first time i went to your place, it was raining. and you ran out to pick me up :) i love walking with you in the rain.

I remember. You called to ask if i was comfortable with her staying over at your place and i trusted you with everything.

I bought you an apple pie. and left it on your desk when you were sleeping. You were holding your phone. (i'm sorry). i picked it up and saw you were reading my messages. salty tears man.

We only took two pictures together. and you never wanted to keep any of them. i still wonder why.

I remember. The first time i saw you after everything was when Rocky and i met Lisa at gardens and she told us you were back in Motherland. Rocky insisted that we visit you since you were only back for a short while.We bought Bacardi and finished it on the way to your place. i was so nervous my head was bursting.

I mustered two years worth of courage and frustration. and said i wanted to talk. and you brushed me off and said you didn't feel like talking. it all felt so familiar. so familiar.

I wonder, why i still love you.

Joshua Radin - The fear you won't fall:

And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall

To you:
Please don't ever feel bad. i miss you. i wish we could be what we used to be. i want you back. i love you.


To you:
I missed you. and i feel like i'm back where i was. what we have now is precious. so precious. i love you.


And yet another song. The Hereafter - Back where i was:

i could not think
i decided i should hideaway
so i did
i did what i could
i did what i did
because it was easy
and i was surprised
before i knew it
i was back where i was


he ran off to forget
i ran off to remember
and when it hit me
i could not sleep
i decided i should hideaway
so i did
i did what i could
i did what i did
because you love me
and i was surprised
before i knew it
i was back where i was


this is pure emo. ignore me.

EVer since i got to know that James Patterson books were made into movies, the first actor which came to mind suitable for the role of Alex Cross was/is (still is.) DENZEL WASHINGTON (Blush. Ha-Ha. Whatever la.)

And then. here's what i read at www.jamespatterson.com under Movie Picks (here):

Deja Vu – I'm a huge Denzel Washington fan and I know a lot of readers would love to see him take a shot at Alex Cross. As always, he's flawless in this role. The movie starts with a bang—literally—but then it gets seriously off the tracks, at least for me.



YAY!!!! i really really wish/hope one day. Denzel Washington will play Alex Cross in a film based on one of James Patterson's books.

Maybe. Maybe.

Kiss the Girls?

OH! OH! i know. MARY MARY!!

How bout. CROSS!

maybe. VIOLETS ARE BLUE!!

can't wait. can't wait. can't wait.

Good Friday! :)

I spent the morning in bed. Waiting for Choy to come. and then we went out for lunch, bought some groceries, and ingredients, fought over who should pay, came back, baked, MADE A SERIOUS MESS (CHOY'S IDEA), and packed our stuff, he left, i washed the toilet, scrubbed, bathed, sat down, did my quiet time, started blogging, THERE! :D a whole day's worth.

Since its Good Friday, i shall blog about my quiet-time passage today.

Scripture:

(i wish i could type the whole bible, because i know any of you (readers, if there are any.) who has problems would be able to find your answers in this little book of small words. Read it, it'll bo-low (blow) Your mind.)

Anyway,

The soldiers took Jesus into the courtyard of the governor's headquarters (called the Praetorium) and called out the entire regiment. Ther dressed him in a purple robe, and the wove thorn branches into a crown and put it on his head. Then they saluted him and taunted, "Hail! King of the Jews!" And they struck him on the head with a reed stick, spit on him, and dropped to their knees in mock worship. When they were finally tired of mocking him, they took off the purple robe and put his own clothes on him again. Then they led him away to be crucified.

... they brought Jesus to a place called Golgotha (which means "Place of the Skull"). They offered him wine drugged with myrrh, but he refused it. Then the soldiers nailed him to the cross. They divided his clothes and threw dice to decide who would get each piece. It was nine o'clock in the morning when they crucified him. A sign was fastened to the cross, announcing the charge against him. It read, "The King of the Jews." Two revolutionaries were crucified with him, one on his right and one on his left.

The people passing by shouted abuse, shaking their heads in mackery. "Ha! Look at you now!" they yelled at him. "You said you were going to destroy the Temple and rebuild it in three days. Well then, save yourself and come down from the cross!"

The leading priests and teachers of religious law also mocked Jesus. "He saved the others," the scoffed, "but he can't save himself! Let thei Messiah, this King of Israel, come down from the cross so we can see it and believe him!" Even the men who were crucified with Jesus ridiculed him.

At noon, darkness fell across the whole land until three o'clock. Then at three o'clock Jesus called out with a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?" which means "My God, My God, why have you abandoned me?"

Some of the bystanders misunderstood and thought he was calling for prophet Elijah. One of them ran and filled a sponge with sour wine, holding it up to him on a reed stick so he could drink. "Wait!" he said. "Let's see whether Elijah comes to take him down!"

Then Jesus uttered another loud cry and breathed his last. And the curtain in the sanctuary of the Temple was torn in two, from top to bottom.

When the Roman officer who stood facing him saw how he had died, he exclaimed, "This man truly was the Son of God!"


Me-Thoughts:

Well. Did you think Jesus was unable to save himself when he was crucified? You think Jesus couldn't come down from the cross? i think not.

i think, With a twitch of his eyebrow he could have had Legions of angels come down to save him. i think, with a blink - no, HALF a blink of his right/left eye, he could have taken the lives of those who flogged him. (i could go on)

My point is, Jesus DIDN'T have to do it. He DIDN'T have to go through with it. He didn't.


But he did. Simply because, he loves you. YOU. You and me. You - reading this. He did so much for your salvation, he was willing to be flogged (ouch) Humiliated, stripped, spit on, have rusty nails hammered into his feet and arms, have a crown of thorns pierced into his head, and everything else, for YOU. for those people who scoffed at him.

He went through all that for those passer-bys who mocked and ridiculed him.

And he did it all out of Love.

I don't know how else to interpret my thoughts to convince YOU that he loves you.

i know some people say things like, "Nah. God doesn't want me. He hates me. I'm such a bad boy/girl. He won't even look at me"

And to that, i say "RUBBISH". God is constantly looking out for you. and you know it just breaks his heart when you say God hates you, and doesn't want you, when he went thru all that pain, suffering and humiliation TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH HE LOVES YOU.

You think he came down for the goody-two-shoes? you think he came down to condemn the baddies? You think he came down from ALL his comforts and riches to kill and slay people who don't meet his standards?

Well. to that, i'd say, PLEASE LAR. HE CAN DO THAT UP IN HEAVEN.

But, thing is, GOd is not like that. HE ISN'T. HE NEVER WAS.

God wants you more than ever. So don't run away from Him.

Lets Rewind a little beet (bit).


The day before yesterday. i feel down from a bus. yes. its funny ( i laughed at myself.) and its painful. could only sit on ONE butt cheek. and the slightest brush or accidental tap on my hip/butt would give you a Banshee (HAHA. a beet o' Drama. But heck. thats me.)

and when i came home, after a while, a second bruise surfaced. and now the bruise is the size of one square of toilet paper. yes. i know its big.

Many daily matters have been met with much inconveniece. A very applicable example: Wearing pants/Underpants. seriously. Another Banshee.

At Night, it hurts when my blanket rests on top of the bruise.

O well. The bruise is still swelling. not that its incresing in size, but its still swollen. and. its a disgusting shade of very very Dark purple.

I know, i know. Go see a doctor. but if you were in my shoes/butt, you'd probably not see a doctor. Because: it's Only a bruise what..............................................

Well. an update now: i'm discovering new bruises! i think there are two on my back. and one on my arm. there aren't discolourations. but i can feel the "groaning" pain. So.

Bruises.

And i hope some skin will grow back soon on my skinlessness. it stings when i bathe.


Sigh. I know. i know. don't ask me why i can get so clumsy. its not like i planned on falling from a height higher or equivalent to mine.

i just realised. alot of my blogthings "conclusions" or "answers" or "results". are. mostly the same as my brother. hmmmmmmmm.

lets see a few more. (these are really addictive. and Short! :D)

You Are Teal Green

You are a one of a kind, original person. There's no one even close to being like you. Expressive and creative, you have a knack for making the impossible possible. While you are a bit offbeat, you don't scare people away with your quirks. Your warm personality nicely counteracts and strange habits you may have.

What Color Green Are You?

You Are a Peanut Butter Jelly Bean

You get along well with all sorts of flavors - and people. You may feel ordinary at times, but you're still loved by (almost) all.

What Flavor Jelly Bean Are You?

Your Monster Profile

Evil Gaze You Feast On: Bananas You Lurk Around In: Olive Gardens You Especially Like to Torment: Vegans

What's Your Monster Name?

HAHAHAHAHA. THIS ONE'S FUNNY. I HATE BANANAS. AND i torment VEGANS?! HAHAHAH.

You Are Cameo

You are understanding and very empathetic. You don't tend to have acquaintances. Everyone is your friend. And all of your friends tend to be friends. You have a knack for bringing very different people together.

What Color Orange Are You?

You are Ocean Blue

You're both warm and practical. You're very driven, but you're also very well rounded. You tend to see both sides to every issue, and people consider you a natural diplomat.

What Color Blue Are You?

A natural diplomat?? HAHA. don't kid me.

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"I can pass this guy."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

There's a question in this test - "How do you think you will die? - got me thinking quite a bit. you should try it.

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable. You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun. You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life... Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut. To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

What Donut Are You?

You May Be a Bit Schizotypal...

A bit odd and socially isolated. You couldn't care less of what others think. And some of your beliefs are a little weird. Like that time you thought you were Jesus.

What Personality Disorder Are You?

HAHAHAHAHHA. O MY GOSH.


Beware people.

teehee

To Kill some time, i decided to watch a random movie from Realplayer. they have free movies, but most (actually all of them) are non-famous films. So. i picked Zhou Yu's Train (Zhou Yu de Huo Che).



It's a Mandarin Art-Fart Film. i Like it :)

It's one of those films - You either love it, or you hate it.

If you ever get to watch it, remember: I Like the Vet (Zhang Qiang).

Some Information:

Cast: Zhou Yu (Played by Gong Li)
Chen Qing (PLayed by Tony Leung)
Zhang Qiang (Played by Sun Hong Lei)
Xiu (Played by Gong Li)

(Narrated by Gong Li.)

The Main idea:

Zhou Yu - an artisan falls in love with Chen Qing - a Poet. She travels twice a week to visit him (tons of sex. thats why its rated PG13.) anyway. Their passion soon stagnates. ARGH. it's too difficult to summarize a film into a few sentences. So, go watch it yourself.




The story is set in Chongyang, China about a romantic relationship between a woman Zhou Yu and her poet lover Chen Ching. Gong Li played two characters in the movie only differ by their hair styles. The movie is pieced together with many flashbacks in no particular chronological order. The director led the audience to believe that the two women were the same person at different time. Only at the end of the movie, it was revealed that the two women were unrelated. Anyone who doesn't watch the plot closely might be totally confused by the way the movie was presented. - Wikipedia


Full Synopsis : Click HERE

Ah. Taiwan. i miss it. and i miss staying in Hotels with Choy and Ting. No matter how lousy the rooms are, their presence just makes everything better. Strange.

Shall blog about Taiwan when i get Choy's and Ting's pictures. YAY! Can't wait!

something Random:

You Are Expressionism

Moody, emotional, and even a bit angsty... you certainly know how to express your emotions. At times, you tend to lack perspective on your life, probably as a result of looking inward too much. This introspection does give you a flair for the dramatic. And it's even maybe made you cultivate some artistic talents! You have a true artist's temperament... which is a blessing and a curse.

What Art Movement Are You?

You Are a Creative Gift Giver

Your gifts are one of a kind, special, and well chosen. Whether you've made it yourself or searched all over town... There's really no one who has more of a personal touch than you.

What Kind of Gift Giver Are You?

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours. Your idea of fashion is jeans and a t-shirt. Clean, if you're lucky. You are a little shy and easily embarrassed. You often wonder if you are normal. In relationships, you are practical and realistic. You have a romantic side, but you only let it out when it's appropriate.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Your Sloth Quotient: 54%

You're definitely lazier than the average person, but you're able to live a somewhat normal life. All your life needs is a little more effort and variety, and you might see that doing hard things is actually fun!

How Much Sloth Do You Have?

There we go! This is definitely lazy me.

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

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this is hardly accurate. go figure what is.

You Communicate With Your Body

This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person. You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches. Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others. A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you!

How Do You Communicate?

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the above is... true. hmph.

You Should Be an Actor

You have a flair for the dramatic, and you probably already do a lot of acting in your day to day life, just to entertain yourself. No need to steal the spotlight from your friends... You'll get plenty of attention once you start acting professionally!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

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Ha-ha-ha. my my.

Your French Name is:

Papillon Bergevin

What's Your French Name?

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Funny. i thought my French name was Genevieve.

Your Hair Should Be Orange

Expressive, deep, and one of a kind. You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

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Gimme the Dye.

You Are 68% Intuitive

You are a very intuitive person. And luckily, your intuition is normally right. You're wise enough to know that relying on intuition alone can be dangerous. When your intuition seems really off, you tend to ignore it - and look at the facts instead.

How Intuitive Are You?

You Are 55% Indie

You're pretty indie, but you don't make a fuss letting everyone know. You just do what you like. You enjoy many types of things - from trendy to bizarre.

How Indie Are You?

You Are "Dizzy and Giddy"

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

SERIOUSLY?




Kay. that's it for now. gonna bathe.




i miss tee ay ai double u ay en. with see hedge oh wai and tee ai en jee.

With Regards to the post on my Reunion dinner.. and the guests who came, Lets see.

Chef Raphael, whom i've taken a picture with, has cooked for..

(I quoted this from his blog. and no, i don't think anyone would lie about this because his Resume IS on the webby itself, so.
i actually deleted the MANY MANY MANY which i don't know. and these are just those whose names May/ may not sound familiar.)

"French President Jaques Chirac, Sandra Bullock, President of the Senate Gabon (Africa), Princess Yasmine Aga Khan, Muhammad Ali, Royal Family of Saudi Arabia, Bruce Webber, His Majesty King Baudouin of Belgium, Barbara Hendricks, Nancy Reagan, Ann Archer, David Bowie, Pierre Cardin, Mariah Carey, Uri Geller, Paula Abdul, Their Royal Highnesses Prince Charles and Lady Diana, L.A. Lakers Basketball Team, Cher, Ann-Nicole Smith, President and Mrs. Clinton, Giorgio Armani, Natalie Cole, Tom Cruise, Geena Davis, Robert De Niro, Fabio (yes, I did), Danny De Vito, Cameron Diaz, Kirk Douglas, Michael Jackson, Bob Dylan, Robert Evans, Her Royal Highness Princess Maha Chakri Sirindhorn of Thailand, Alan Ball, Alan Poul, Steven Spielberg, Barbra Streisand, Harrison Ford, President and Mrs. Gerald R. Ford, Michael J. Fox, James Garner, Shirley Temple, Bill Gates, David Geffen, Mel Gibson, President and Mrs. Ford, Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks, Claude Montana, Sir Anthony Hopkins, Sarah Jessica Parker, Don Henley, Leonardo di Caprio, Arthur Mendoza, the Spice Girls, Caroll Burnett, Tommy Hilfiger, Barron Hilton, Dustin Hoffman, Julianne Moore, Meryl Streep, Tom Cruise, Helen Hunt, Janet Jackson, Paul Beaucuse, Mick Jagger, Randal Kleiser, Michael Jordan, Kobe Bryant, Madonna, Playboy Mansion, Ann Margaret, Vivienne Westwood, Steve Martin, Devine, Ellen de Generes, Demi Moore, Jack Nicholson, Al Pacino, Palais Jada Pinkett, Herb Ritts, Winona Ryder, Arnold Schwarzennegger, Sidney Sheldon, Brooke Shields, Will Smith, Aaron Spelling, Rod Stewart, Sharon Stone, Elizabeth Taylor, John Travolta, Naomi Cambell, Tina Turner, Nicole Kidman, Heidi Klum, Richard Gere, Naomi Watts, George Michael, House of Hermes, Elton John, Bruce Villanche, and many more. "

MY GOSh. Big shot ay?. thats my dad's executive Chef. and i heard he (Chef Raphael) used to be Arnold Schwarzennegger's Private Chef.

Anyway. i remembered he brought a friend, Richard, whom i (later that night) found out, works for CNN. So. i got bored, and i went Googled his name - Richard Quest. My Goodness: http://edition.cnn.com/CNN/anchors_reporters/quest.richard.html

(Whispers: He has his own show on CNN.)

(Whispers Again.: They were both in my humble abode.)

(Whispers, Yet, again.: i bear-hugged them both. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. O, What the hell.)