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When you don't feel like working,

You printscreen your desktop and post it on your blog.

Nothing in Everything makes Anything out of Something

Heal my heart and make it clean,
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like You have loved me.

Break my heart for whats breaks Yours,
Everything i am for Your Kingdom's cause
As i walk from earth into eternity.

~

Work has been better, handling stress better, managing my time better, understanding things better. Better.

I want to move on, and get better - I wanna learn more. Learn as much as i can.

I thank God for protection, wisdom, and everything else - good and bad. I thank God for strength, i thank God for joy, and peace at work. I thank God for a loving family, for a dad who insists that my hair must be totally dry before i go to bed, for a brother who reminds me i'm home earlier than usual by saying, "Ay! So early! its not even 10!" - causing me to be thankful for efficiency at work.

I miss everyone - Gavin, Aaron, Nat, Gek, Xuan, Debbie ++++++

VERK

My days have been filled with work and more work.

I lost 2Kg in one week. Which is pretty drastic, considering i went to Vietnam for 3 months, and lost 1 Kg.

haha.

Work has been overwhelming, but no, i'm not gonna resign.

Last week, i worked till 1am-2am in the morning - everyday. It was horrible. As much as fatigue can be accumulated, the fatigue goes away because of the adrenaline you get during work. But the adrenaline actually makes your body work harder - until you finally stop (which is around 2am for me.) By that time - nothing else matters. I sleep at 2+, and wake at 5.30am - and get back to be pumped with adrenaline.


I find that even though work has been tough and tough, i have never considered resigning. Despite the many many "Resign la! So not worth it!" comments which i am getting sick of. It doensn't make me feel any better. I'd Shush you right out if i had worse manners.

Thank you for your concern, but i'd rather you be supportive and encourage me to be strong.

It seems the only person who's supportive is my dad.

He says that i work like he did when he was younger - (and that's true. my personality's more like my dad.) thats why he understands why i stay back so late (many people don't.). Papa tells me to work hard, and assures me that i will see the fruits of my labour. Papa makes me a cuppa Ginseng Drink that i drink every morning before going to work. Papa comforts me by telling me to keep up the good work.

The other day he smsed me, "Waaaah. It seems like i've not seen my daughter for a few years." which i found very funny.

Thank you Papa <3


And Lord, i pray You give me strength. Give me the patience to handle the bothersome Customer Sales Reps. Give me the strength and intelligence to deal with the problems that my people don't know how to solve. Help me to be a joy at work - I want to glorify You. Use me Lord, for your purposes. May my words be pure and clean, may my actions be gracious and pleasing. Lord, lead me in Your ways. Amen. :)

Leaving, on a jet plane

And you're leaving. I'm gonna miss you so much, so so much.


I'll see you when you get back, SGLJ.



Love always,

Gen

Backspace

I miss you :" (

You. Just like i did to someone else, i deleted you.

It's probably my way of escaping. Escaping from the temptation to contact you.

Thats why, i delete. Delete. Delete. Delete.

I backspaced you.

Go away.

For my 20th Birthday.

Its not even near.

But i already know what i want.

The Complete Series of INDIANA JONES.

I thank Mummy and Papa for introducing Indiana Jones to me when i was young <3

Cakes

If my life was a chocolate cake, these people would be the Fudge.

Atheists and Faith.

Thank you Ev, for the Rejuvenation :) I love and miss you. Thank you for the card (you gave on grad day.), really sweet gesture. -ALL HAIL LIG Main Comm!-

I went to church today, and i didn't really understand the message. Although i do agree with one theory that Pastor Khong talked about.

He said,

If a man says, "I believe that there's no God in the world", then i'll salute him and say, "You're a man of great faith!".

Why so? you ask.

The bible says that every Christian must have Faith. Faith is the belief, hope for or having complete trust for something without proof.

Everyone has faith, its like - you board a bus, you see a seat, and you sit down. Would you check the quality of materials used to build the bus? Would you question the bus driver to make sure the bus is well maintained? Would you open up the seats to see if there are cockroaches inside? Would you test the maximum weight the seat can withstand before sitting down?

No. Because you have faith, you believe that the bus is functioning well. You trust that the seat will not break when you sit. Faith.

Can you prove that the seat won't break before you sit down on it? No. Can you ensure that the bus will not explode somewhere on the roads? No. But do you board it? Yes. Do you sit on the seat? Yes. Faith.


Well then, back to my original statement. Why is an Atheist a man of great faith? If he claims that he believes that there is no God in this world, then he must have searched EVERY SINGLE corner of this earth - the entire Universe, the many many many galaxies, every planet, every star - before he can conclude that there is no God. Because otherwise, the statement that says "There is no God." is totally based on faith - because where and how, can he gather the evidence to prove that there is no God? Is it possible to search every single corner of this earth? No. Is it possible to be on every planet? In every galaxy? On every star? No. Therefore, the belief that there is no God is purely based on Faith - Complete, Utter, Bold - Faith.

And the irony of it all - Christianity, is all about Faith.

The day i died at work

Yesterday, i died at work.

I died because:

- I missed the LIG main comm dinner.
- Everyone at work was frustrated and tired.
- Repeatedly scanning 198 cartons is NOT GOOD AT ALL.
- Manual reconciliation of SO MANY CARTONS IS EXASPERATING
- My legs were aching because i had to stand for a few hours.
- I didn't have dinner.
- I worked non-stop until 10.45pm.
- Having 6 Managers and Senior Managers watch you type is NOT FUN.
- Some people at work have VERY BAD ATTITUDES.
- Repeated IT Problems is hair-pullingly and table-smashingly annoying.



And thats how i died.


I was so tired, i fell asleep whilst talking on the phone. 宝剑！ 对不起 ：（

GRAH-DOO-AY-SEE-OHN

All in a Noot-shell

So much has happened.

Graduation was wonderful. I thank my brother for coming. At first i was still thinking, maybe it would be better if he didn't go - its so inconvenient for him to travel so far, and it would be a boring ceremony for him.

Then after the ceremony was over, i was glad that i had family with me :)

So, Thank you Kor <3

Anyway, after Graduation and TONS of photo-taking. We (Gavin, Aaron, Gek, Nat and Myself.) met for dinner at La Mei Zi - MA LA HOTPOT!

It was time well spent. :) We ate and ate and ate. and drank. and wiped. (wiped off perspiration from our brow). It was wonderful. I enjoyed myself. After that we headed next door to HK Cafe to indulge in some REALLY good Milk Tea and Coffee and Bolo Buns. <3 Lovely.

Graduation has left me feeling accomplished but a little bit scared. Scared of the future, scared of leaving my comfort zone, scared that I won't be in contact with my Polymates. But i'm sure the Good Lord sees my fears, and He knows my fears. :)

Yesterday (at work), we were supposed to prepare for a physical simulation of the entire process flow (Information, Goods, and Documents) for the new warehouse. The Customer was supposed to arrive at 4, but they only came at 4.30pm. We dragged on and on and on till 7.45pm. Yes, OT.

And as i was playing with the system, there were SOO many errors - my goodness. NOT ACCEPTABLE. Especially when you're demonstrating to your customers. Tsk tsk tsk. So worrisome.

And then the IT dept keep promising the customer everything will be done by today. by today. by today. And today we're only working half day. WHERE ARE WE GONNA FIND TIME.

>.<

Boredom

1. Were you named after anyone?

Nope, not that i know of - anyway.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Probably a few days ago at office. I laughed too hard.

3. Do you like your handwriting?

I like it better when i'm using pens i like :)

4. What is your favorite lunch meat?

Chicken? Pork?

5. Do you have kids?

No. But i've thought of names :D

6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?

I think so. :D I'm nice you know.

7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Depends on the situation. I'm usually sarcastic when i'm pissed.

8. Do you still have your tonsils?

Yes i do.

9. Would you bungee jump?

Most definitely.

10. What is your favorite cereal?

The current one that i'm eating. It comes with Oat-clumps, and dried up strawberries that are so sour they wake you up. Serves its purpose as a breakfast cereal.

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

Nah.

12. Do you think you're strong?

Physically - no. Mentally - no. Emotionally - no. So, no.

13. What is your favorite ice cream?

Coffee - Always Coffee.

14. What is the first thing you notice about people?

Hair.

15. Red or pink?

Yellow :)

16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?

My... lack of strength - Refer to question 12.

17. Who do you miss the most?

My Mum. And... some other people.

18. Do you want everyone to send this back to you?

No preference.

19. What color pants and shoes are you wearing?

White FBTs which have turned greyish purple. and. Bedroom slippers.

20. What was the last thing you ate?

Satay Beehoon.

21. What are you listening to right now?

The tiktik taktaks from my keyboard when i type.

22. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?

Yellow. or Orange.

23. Favorite smells?

Ah, thats a secret :)

24. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

Papa.

25. Do you like the person who sent this to you?

She's a naughty girl :D

26. Favorite sports to watch?

I prefer Crime and Investigative shows.

27. Eye color?

Black - i think.

28. Hair color?

Black. - i think.

29. Do you wear contacts?

Yes. And i rinse them with Solo Care Aqua.

30. Favorite food?

Coffee flavoured stuff.

31. Scary movies or happy endings?

Depends on the occasion, usually after Exams i'd go for a scary movie. Otherwise, Happy Endings :)

32. Last movie you watched?

Over her dead body.

33.What color shirt are you wearing?

Holey and White.

34. Summer or winter?

Winter. Always.

36. Favorite dessert?

Dau Suan. XD

37. What book are you reading now?

James Patterson's 6th Target.

40. What is on your mouse pad?

Common sense would say - The Mouse?. but. i don't have a mousepad.

41. What did you watch on TV last night?

Something to do with... Animal Planet. or, the History Channel.

43. Rolling Stones or Beatles?

Yanni.

44. What is the farthest you have been from home?

China, if i'm not wrong.

45. Do you have a special talent?

I do :) just haven't discovered it yet.

46. Where were you born?

Mount Elizabeth.

47. Whose answers are you looking forward to getting back?

Lemme think.

To express my gratitude and love :

Misheard Lyrics :D

Sometimes Misheard Lyrics are the funniest things.

I've had my share of them.

As i was sharing with Gek and Aaron last night during dinner, i'm currently hooked on the song "No One" by Alicia Keys, which they totally dissed me for being outdated and everything. Who cares.

Anyway, when i first heard the song I was extremely puzzled.

I THOUGHT Alicia Keys sang:

"I just washed your clothes,
So you can stay forever."

Then i realised (after a few hearings), She meant:

"I just want you close,
Where you can stay forever."

And i laughed for a little bit. Then i remembered the other Lyrics i misheard - "Ghost of Me and You" By BB Mak.

I THOUGHT, there was a line in the chorus that was weird.

"It isn't love, it's rubbery.
I'm sleeping with the Ghost of you and me."

WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD LOVE BE MISTAKEN TO BE RUBBERY.

Then i went online to check. Revelation.

"It isn't love, it's robbery.
I'm sleeping with the Ghost of you and me."



Hehehehehe.


I invite anyone reading this silly post to think of your own misheard lyrics. And laugh :D

I love the rain the most

Today morning was absolutely lovely. :)



When i alighted from the train, the sky was all gloomy with huge dark clouds. And after i bought my packet milo, i felt cold drops on my arms. It was raining!



I love morning rain. I can't find the right words to express myself. but i love morning rain.



It was all cold and chilly, strangely, the rain smelt like the sea. It was beyond lovely.



I saw that old uncle struggling to light his cigarette in the hair-flipping winds.



I saw the trees sway and the leaves ruffle.



I saw a very nicely dressed lady running across the road with her hands over her head - attempting to shield out the rain (which wasn't very heavy).



And i saw everyone enjoying the cold, strong winds.



It was a lovely morning.

I got on the (very) cold bus, and enjoyed the simple fact that i had shelter. I sang praises (people couldn't hear me because of the engine noises - and the fact that they were all sleeping - wonderful weather to sleep.), sang praises till i fell asleep.

It was a lovely morning.

Losses are hard to deal with

It seems as though everyone is leaving - people i care about, people who are dear to me.

Then i ask myself, why - why do i get emotionally attached so easily?

Not talking about Boy-Girl Relationships and all that. But even with objects and inanimate things, Why do i develop a dependence for earthly things so easily.

Every loss is hard to take, and i have had my own fair share of losses. People at work ask if i miss my mum - Of course i do. Every single day. I miss her. And they give me the sad face everytime i reply.

Psalm 103

"For He knows how weak we are,
He remembers we are only dust.
Our lives are like wildflowers;
Like grass - we bloom and die.
But the love of the Lord remains forever."

The bible says that the Lord will not put me through any test that is too difficult for me. And i believe that - with all my heart and soul.

I have many friends who are going through periods of testing - and it has resulted in alot of struggling and heartaches.

Let this be an encouragement.

Know that whatever test you're going through is put in place only to strengthen and mold you. God will not put you through an exam He knows you can't handle. So as tough as the "tough times" are, be encouraged, because God knows you're stronger than that! :)

YOU SEE ME BUEY SONG RIGHT.

Don't look down on me, because i'm young, because i'm a girl, because i have big eyes. - whatever rubbish reason.

You don't wanna teach me - Fine.

One day i'll show you that I AM CAPABLE.

It makes a difference

Recently my brain has been caught up with a few stuff. Stuff thats not really worth my time and effort. Stuff that gets me in the Emo Spirit. Stuff that's not from God. So, last friday's Cell Group was really encouraging even though i wasn't feeling that good for most part of it. Anyhow, Aunt Shirley shared how she's getting into the habit of memorising Psalms. So i decided i'd try it too. And it makes a Difference :)

Lets hear part of mine:

Psalm 103

Let all that i am praise the Lord
With my whole heart, I will praise His holy name.

Let all that i am praise the Lord,
May i never forget the good things He does for me.

He forgives my sins,
He heals my diseases.
He redeems me from death
and crowns me with love and tender mercies.

- then i can't remember the rest.


I was reading my bible on the bus to work, and i felt really happy. Its a joy that isn't natural - i think. And i just recalled that Psalm 103 was my mum's favourite Psalm <3

I miss mummy. Wish she was here.

Then, i reached Tuas. AND THE SKY WAS ALL GLOOMY.

THATS MY FAVOURITE KIND OF SKY. <3 Thank you Jesus.

My voiceless days

I love being voiceless. Especially when i force myself to sing, and my voice goes all over the place. Totally worth it.

The past few days have been.. different. In a sense, old people coming back, new people disappearing. At work, I've been learning alot. I thank God that the Pakciks at the warehouse are so merciful, for they never hesitate to teach me how they go about doing their work.

So, Thank you Pakciks!

And the office people have been really nice as well. Sibu is really comical, ChaiFong has been great in teaching me stuff and ordering lunch! The china ladies and Wilson are very nice too. I think i need to get to know Esther better. I thank God that Pakcik Moo is so patient. I think i've been quite irritating, asking him the same stuff over and over again. Lets hear some examples:

Me: Pakcik Moo! Philippines is what?

PM: PH (with a smile :) )

~

Me: Pakcik, Which one is the invoice number?

PM: This one (with smile :) )

~

Me: Pakcik Moo, this is local delivery right?

PM: Yes :)

Me: So no need to key in House Airway Bill and Permit number?

PM: Yes :)

~

If i were Pakcik Moo, i'd have ripped off my head. -


Anyhow, Last night i had a very real conversation. Part of which made me sad, the other part made me happy. But for most parts, i had no opinions - since its no-think day.
Nevertheless, the part that made me happy - was the part when you got serious.

And then there's a part that was very... HAAA?!? We were talking about indifference and how it irritates the hell out of me. And my impression was that you didn't care about anything at all.

You: I care about my parents.

Me: Okay. thats good. What else?

You: You.

-silence-

Me: Ha?

You: I care about you.

-more silence-

~

Then, i can't remember what came after the silence. I think it was talk about Sex Gods and Gurus. Thats the part i want to forget. Cheeeez.